wow. it's a leap year. leap. leap. makes me think of the frogs we saw during assembly last week... all the slicing of heads and ripping of the skin.... eeeewww.. poor frogs... leap. leap. hahahaha..

i was pissed of on thursday cos we lost the match to majusri by 2 STOOOPID POINTS. ya.. 2 stupid points majusri sec DID NOT DESERVE. crap majusri.. crap referee was so damn biased.. didnt call foul when they so obviously fouled.. they pushed xiao j like.. 4 or 5 times.. n they only called 2 fould.. wt_!!!! its like... they so dont deserve winning.. we shld have won.. bleahz.. to win by this kind of method is low-down, despicable.. crap referees.. how dumb. n lame.. but nvm.. we'll beat them.. beat all of them. thrash their sorry little asses... we'll get into finals nationals... yea! then AHS can go n bugger off..... n thats not all to my bad few days. on friday i was mugging like a mad idiot for my chinese paper. n on saturday morning when we took the test.. there were SO many words i nv seen before. guess y..? cos my teacher didnt tell us that there were 3 extra chpt.s n extra cheng yus to study. so ya.. i guess i'm all prepared to fail cos i had nv seen those crap words before...... bleahz. to think i studied so hard.. n all the words i studied didnt even come out... was so pissed.. to think i mugged for a paper..............

anyway.

yesterday night was brilliant.. svc was.. mind blowing.. altho i was pretty pissed with nigel after my cg cos i wasted so many smses on him n called him like a zillion times w/o any response from him cos he was supposed to go svc with me... i got over it n went to church pretty happily... haha.. n pst. kong talked abt potential. Potential is dormant ability, reserved power, untapped strength, unused success, hidden talents, capped capability... in short, POTENTIAL is all you can be but have not yet become. n ytd was really.. ground breaking.. dropped into revelation, mind set free, totally can see the light kind of zone. the feelng of a lightbulb going on in ur head n God is going "u r finally getting it...." potential comes from God. God is FULL of potential.. He is EXPLODING with it. n from the beginning of time.. God has had EVERYTHING in Him becos from God all things come.. right? so ya... in the beginning He has already placed a whole load of potential into u (yes YOU... YOU reading this right now i'm talking abt YOU) n to not use it, is being irresponsible. u r robbing the world of talent.. of sumthing God has placed specially into you. Do u know how special u are??? u were in God's mind since the beginning... n once u finally get an idea, a vision.. put it into action..! dare to become excellent. dare to go above status quo.. to stretch the boundary of tradition.. n man when u come to the end of ur life.. wont it be cool when God says "u've done well... well done good n faithful servant."?? its like.. WOW. i really got alot frm yesterdays msg.. n i AM gonna study harder. i AM gonna become all i am capable of...!!! at the end of my life.. to be able to say that i have fought the good fight, i have finished the race, i have kept the faith......... man that'll be a good day. hahaha... i'm so excited just talking abt it.. yay!! hahahahaha... =D n after svc.. i got to talk with steven.. n it was really good...! haha.. my dear steven is an SOT student liao.. n he was telling me abt SOT (SOT is School Of Theology a.k.a CHC Bible School) n how its like to be studying there.. n he was telling me abt how u r given alot of responsibilities.. n how many miracles u'll experience.... n he was just sharing with me how SOT life is like. n it was really interesting lor.. man i wanna got SOT sum day.. after my A's.. i wanna go SOT!!! he was telling me how it really stretches ur faith.. where u really learn to depend on God... n i was soo.. inspired.. hahaha.. man i wanna go SOT!!! hahaha.. rocks man... =D i get high just talking abt it.. of envisioning myself being in SOT.. yayyy.. haha..

well i have been typing for really long liao.. i better go start on my studying.. tmr's my E Math paper.. i can do it!!!!!!! hahahaha.. its time to start mugging again... lol..... later..!

i was bored. really bored. not exactly in a good mood.. we lost the match today... by 2 miserable points.. referees so damn kayu.. stupid majusri idiot go push xiao j until she fell down.. n they didnt even call a foul.. whut the hell.. so bloody idiotic lor.. didnt know how to comfort my fren.. was quite sad.. ya.. stupid referees.. dunnoe how to referee lor.. ah forget it i dont wanna think abt them. so ya. as i was saying. i was really bored. dont feel like opening my textbooks just yet. so here i am. abt to embark on a crappy quiz i saw.. but ah who cares. i'm borreedddd.. n lazy. n pissed. gah.




[10 of your favorite songs at this moment]
10) five for fighting - superman
9) sly and the family stone - everyday people
8) hillsongs - carry me
7) hillsongs - to the ends of the earth
6) johnny cash - desperado
5) joss stone - fell in love with a boy
4) the all american rejects - don't leave me
3) maroon 5 - tangled
2) maroon 5 - shiver
1) maroon 5 - she will be loved

[09 things you're looking forward to]
1) oscars
2) church
3) cell group
4) shopping next week with my peeps
5) mugging (strangely i'm looking forward to it)
6) my birthday
7) christmas
8) buying a nice book.. been a long time since i did that
9) the time maroon 5 will come to singapore (if they've ever heard of this small place...)

[08 things you enjoy doing most]
1) crapping
2) singing
3) shopping
4) blasting music
5) reading books
6) praying
7) staring at this stoopid thing typing away. lol
8) sleeping


[07 favourite memories]

1) first time i played with snow
2) first time i stepped into a 3 story nike shop.. it was just one building all about nike.. was so cool.. haha
3) first time i went to Universal Studios n Disneyland (LA)
4) first time i stepped into our new church building.. was almost gonna cry cos so happy.. haha
5) queue-ing with my members at the old church building... was hot n stuffy but i loved it
6) when i bought bubbles n vanilla
7) singing in front of a crowd.. was a brill. feeling.. hahaha.. =D

[06 things you touch everyday]
1) my hp
2) my hair
3) my bubbles n vanilla (r they counted as things??)
4) my computer keyboard.. lol..
5) my pillow
6) my contact lense case.. hahaha

[05 things you do everyday]
1) sleep
2) sing
3) crapping
4) blast music
5) come to this crappy computer.. ahahaha

[04 things you are good at]
1) errmm.. crapping.. lol.. making pple laugh i guess.. haha
2) staring at my computer for hours n hours...
3) i'd like to say singing.. but i dont think i'm good enough.. ah whut the heck... i shall type it big big.. SINGING
4) stoning... lol

[03 movies you'd watch over and over again]
1) lord of the rings trilogy
2) centre stage.. crap plot but man they sure can dance
3) finding nemo...!!! or sumthing funny yet sweet at the same time.. lol

[02 artists or bands you've seen live]
1) artiste.. singapore so small.. well.. i see my beloved pst. sun in church.. hahha... he yao sun..!!
2) hillsongs n delirious.. man they rocckkk.

[01 person you'd spend your life with]
1) have no idea.. haha.. one of my close girlfriends i guess.. like they say, "guys come n go.. but a girlfriend lasts a lifetime." hahahahhaa.. =D

note: all these arent in order of how much i like them aiight.. not that i think u pple will care.. but ya i want to set that straight.. except for the music.. hahahaha.. ya. i'm still bored.. but less pissed lol. better start on work liao.... later.

i thought of you today. u just popped in my mind during my math test. its been a looonngg time since i last saw u... just where have u been and what have u been doing?? i wanna meet u. i wanna see ur face.. i wanna see the person who made me whut i am today. or at least u contributed largely in making me paranoid, cynical, closed, depressed.... i'm not blaming you. i would have become paranoid w/o u anyway.. just that i'd have taken a longer time. ya.. i wanna see whut u've become.. i have soo many questions.. do you miss me? do u think of me?? or are u so focused on your work and your life now? the last time i talked to you.. you just sounded tired n passionless. with no drive to excel.. all u're doing is scraping thru life... my dear.. why have u become like that........... do u rmb when u were my foundation? the times when i relied on you so much.. when i looked to you when i needed help... can u rmb??? or have u forgotten what its like...... why did u just leave. i dont blame you anymore, but i still have so many questions. why did u leave? why did u leave me all alone to fight this world by myself? was it because u didnt want me? or what????

i wish you could answer me... but i don't think u even read this crappy blog of mine. so whatever. i just needed to let this all out. i wish u'd know i was talking about you........................ but i can't be constantly day dreaming right. so whutever. i shall forget u. i will forget u........

i can't forget you. you're too important.





Maroon 5 - she will be loved
Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else

I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've had you so many times but somehow
I want more

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved

Tap on my window, knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get so insecure
It doesn't matter anymore

It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain, oh
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved

I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls

Tap on my window, knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful

I don't mind spending every day
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved

Please don't try so hard to say goodbye
Please don't try so hard to say goodbye

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain

Please don't try too hard to say goodbye

You have a goodbye kiss- much passion and longing,
but never lasting.


What kind of kiss are you?
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i love maroon 5. i love maroon 5. i love adam levine. omg.. i lovvveee adam levine. he rocks. he rocks. he totally rocks.............. its like.. he just rocks. no question. n the music he composes is.. wow. brilliant. fabulous. love it. it's great. yay. they r FAB.

it's official: sarah's been bitten by the maroon 5 bug n she's crazy over them.

wow. yea. they rrroooccckkk. so, so sooooo cool.... *reads whut she just wrote* ok. realise that i've been gushing.. but ah who cares. i think they rock..! lol.

ok. i wanna continue dreaming of maroon 5. later

i was at the provision shop (a.k.a mama shop.. but i hv no idea why they call it a mama shop.. its like.. the pple who tend to the shops arent really mamas n they dont sell mamas n basically its totally not related to mamas unless they mean that the shop tends to cater to mamas but its not true cos they r my sweet supply n not just my supply, they basically provide the sweets most kids need.. but ah i'm ranting cos i m feeling a bit high cos of ovalteenies which are the nicest and cheepest choc sweets that are able to get me high.. u shld really try it.. pop four or five in your mouth at the same time n magically ur head feels lighter, u're happier and u can start crapping.. hahaha.. but ah i digress so let me continue with the story.....) gonna buy a few packets of ovalteenies and guess whut i saw. a guy in this awfully short n tight pants running...just like sum fellow from rocky or sum other crapp movie where you see sum guy (prob sylvester or arnie) training for sum big fight they have with a look of grim determination on their faces..... i cant really explain, but he seriously looked so dramatic when he was running.. it was quite amusing. but thats not th point.. the point was he had extremely hairy legs. like.. he could be a hobbit (hmm.. i cant rmb if hobbits just hv hairty toes or hairly legs.. but u catch my drift) or a really close cousin to the gorilla.. which was so GROSS. i mean.. short n tight track shorts i'm fine with.. but puhleaz.. whut does he want to show??? all the hairs sticking out from his not so nice looking leg...?? like.. EEEEWWW.. it so does not look good.. so guys.. please dont ever wear short pants cos if u have hairy legs.. girls will cringe, or at least i will... which brings me to another point.... why cant guys shave?? its like.. u dont have to wax u know.. no one is asking u guys out there to go for a brazillian or bikini wax.. but just shave. n shaving doesnt hurt.. i bet u guys know cos you constantly shave ur face n stuff.. so it doesnt hurt so cant u just shave?? honestly.. a clean leg nicer than one with lotsa gross curly hairs sticking out right?!?!?!?!?!!!! and u dont have to worry abt crappy girls who pull ur leg hair cos i tried pullng my bros one n he screamed at me.. but thats another story lol. anyway back to my crappy topic. guys.... please, please, please, please do not go out with ur hideos legs shown in public.. its just WRONG. it looks gross and its just... WRONG. so ya................... thats all i came online to say cos i wanted to destress and i am pretty destressed cosnidering all the crap i just typed so haha. crappy nutty sarah is baaccckk.. i'll talk abt more weird things on my next post.. =D

sarah is nuts.... n she doesnt like hairy legs. hahaha.

oh ya i have to say that my previous entry is a realllyyy compressed vsn. of pst. ulf's message.. n it was just sum stuff i pulled out.. ya.. hahahaha.. if ur want notes ur can ask me n i'll try to compile a good set consisting of a few pple's ddiff. notes.. yea.. =D

i have a TON of hw staring at me.. but ah what the heck i'm gonna ignore it and rush like crazy later.. lol. so here i am typing rubbish on my blog for ya'll to see. =D it's been pretty long since i actually wrote a blog entry with substance.. n my dear friend has been bugging me to get started on sumthing..... so here i am trying to organize my thoughts.. wondering if i shld tell u all that's going on in this spasticated brain i have.................. bleeaauuurrgghh.

have been really tired lately. physically, mentally, spiritually.. i've been feeling very drained.. so it was really fab to have pst. ulf come and shed some light in my narrow mind.. so i shall try to share sum of the things he talked abt on friday n saturday. on friday, he was talking abt being lovers of God instead of:
1) lovers of self
-how everything is centred around urself n there's the unholy trinity a.k.a I, Me, My and u become so self centred that u worship self instead of God...
2) lovers of money
-when u become so focused on using money to achieve status (or 'glory') and instead of using money for good u idolize it n blahblah.. and an interesting note is that money is NEUTRAL. n the prob is ur heart, ur intentions.. so ya usually all these three loves come together..
3) lovers of pleasure
-ok this is like.. major no.. cos in 2 timothy 3:5 it says that pple will have a form of godliness but deny its power and that basically means that pple want religion w/o sacrifice, w/o the cross, w/o love for god.. when it all just revolves around yourself, and having fun so u do things for entertainment and pleasure... ok i know i dont exactly make sense now but i have no time to organize my thoughts cos i really need to get stared on my work.. i can almost sense my pile of work getting bigger n bigger n bigger.. but ah i digress.
(f.y.i, he was preaching from 2 tim 3:1-5 and matt 24:4, 11-12.. oh ya and also heb 11:24 -25)

and also he talked abt how we are supposed to be different from the world.. n well he talked abt alot of stuff that really hit my spirit... made me question myself and during sermon my mind was basically going: sarah ling.. just what have u been up to?? where is the passion, the purity, the simplicity...?? whut have u been doing for soo long now?? wake up girl... c'mon focus on god.. not on things of this earth..
and ya i realise i have alot of things i need to set straight with Him.. alot of things i've been too laxed abt.. n when he was talking abt proclaiming u're a christian w/o the sacrifice, w/o the love.. i mean.. man it really hit me.. it was like pst was talking abt me lor.. i have been so off track.. so focused on other things.. gah i really need to get back to where i once was. so ya here i am telling u pple that sarah is on her way back. n i can see so many areas in my life i need to make right........ but i wont get into that cos all those probs are for me to know, God to know.. n prob my cgl to know so ya.. haha.. ok i've crapped enuff n i think my pile of hw just got bigger... so more on saturday's sermon which was abt living in the vlessing of God. n that was really a super duper fab. sermon which i'll talk abt later... =D
so its official: sarah's back.. the mist has been cleared.. she now sees the bigger picture... n she's happy abt that. haha.. =D

natalie is soooo sweettt (ok ya i know this will only make her head bigger.. ;p but ya she is really very sweettt.. i m getting high just thinking abt how sweet she is.. LOL)........... ok u peeps out there must be dyyiinnggg to know why she is so sweet.. so i'll tell u.
my dearesttt nat had dance practise in sch today so she couldnt make it for svc.. but she waited for us to reach bedok mrt all by herself for more than half an hour lorr..!! ya.. n we had yummmyyy hokkien mee.. =D it was really great to see her again... miss alot of the funnn times w had together.. hahahaha.....
oh ya! n i saw my sisters zone member.. this guy bernard who used to cum to my hs to teach my sister how to play guitar.. n it was really quite amusing cos we were talking for awhile.. when both of us didnt knw dui fang's names.. n i was feeling so guilty cos i thot he knew my name n i forgot his.. bt appparently he forgot mine too..! lol.. so ya i gave him my blog addiee.. so if he checks this out.. well here's a shout out to youuuu...lol.

hmm.. nuthing much i wanna blog ler.. lol.. today wasnt in a very good mood.. have been pretty tired the past few days.. due to sum crapp i've been doing in sch n stuff.. man i'm beat. my back is extremely knotted up.. all my muscles are like.. bunched together so my back feels really tight n stuff.. so crap................................

well i was lying abt the not having anything to blog. i have alot of things i want to say... but dunnoe whether it is safe to put it up on this extremely advertised blog....... doink.

ah forget it. i'll post another time.. getting sleepier n sleepier.. lol.. more another day. nitez ya'll

heloo hello hellooo.. well i have a few billion things i wanna blog about.. but so little time.. blahz.. i shall try to just tell u whut happened n then expand on it later..

well first things first.. i promised updates on the talentimes.. n well the dance auditions didnt go as well as i hoped.. in fact i think i did quite badly n totally screwed everyone up... but well wz said i'm always harsh on myself so... dunnoe lah.. i really hope we can get into finals even with a bad audition.. i'll be pretty sad if we dont get in.. cos we practised really really hard.. so more updates on that as soon results are out.. but pls pls pls keep all of ur fingers (and toes, n eyes, and tongue, n hair n whutever u can find..) crossed until results cum out.. =D

and today was cross country.. but thank goodness i didnt need to run cos i sprained my ankle last week n it still hurts.. but that is not the main point of today so onto whut i really wanna talk abt..........
man i really miss my chopstick sister.. its been like.. so long since we actually hung out.. n today was fab. fab. fab!!!! first of all was becos i could hang out with gyyyy my pigpig.. its like.. been ages since we had a crap conversation together.. n honestly, i am pretty glad my first plans fell thru so i could go hang out with my ex classmates.. n it was pretty fun.. to think i didnt hang with them last time.. we went to KFC after schl to pigg out.. n then after the cross country we went to bugis to da chi n talk crap.. n it was really funnn to hang out.... oh ya n i got a daddiee!! (nicola) quite strange hor? considering we couldnt stand each other last time.. lol....

ok i gtg.. american idol start liao...!! more later..!!! muaksssss

i have to say.....................


I LOVE MAROON 5!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! oh man.. they rockkk man.. damn they're good. they're music is brilliant.. haha.. so check them outtt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok thats all i came online to say.. n oh ya.. sumone intro nice hip hop music w/ good beats for me to dance to asap!!!!!!! i m having such a hard time finding nice music... crap....

not fair not fait not fair not fair not fair not fair not fairrr...

tmr is the NBA all stars matc.. in the morning.. oh mannn.. not fair not fair.. i wont get to watch it.. =( how stupid... y on earth do they have it in the morning?!?!?!!?!?!?!?!!!! doinkz......

anyway.

i just wanna state for the record that kyle korber is one of the cutest bballers i've seen.. omg.. sumone fly me to staples centre by tmr so i can wach the match.............................................................................

sarah's dreaming of bball... n kyle korber. ;p

sumone actually 'complained' that i havent blogged.. so ya.. i'm back.. its been a loonngg 3 days.. n well, i have lots to blog about.. so lets get the ball rolling..=D

my friday auditions werent good.. i think i sounded like crap.. altho i'm usually very hard on myself.... but still.. it did not go well.. i dont think i'd get into the semis.. n actualy, i'm not too sad about it... haha..its comforting in a weird way to know that i wont have to freak out abt the finals... n i finally can eat potato chips!! hahaha.. so i'm alright about that... =) but well.. on friday i finally went back to my own service... n i'm soooooo glad to be back.... =) its like.. i missed my own service sooo soooo soooooo much.. n seeign all my beloved members.. plus seeing sharon's cgms, n daniel.. the peeps... it was just FAB. =D so ya that was all great.. hehe

n on valentine's day.. well i didnt do much.. on my plan to boycott valentines day (btw ya'll shld check out meg cabots own blog.. cos its so brilliant n so funny n she rockkkss!!http://megcabot.com/blog/blogger.html) i had to wake up early to collect a crappy jian bao in schl.. n i basically slacked at home the whole day. the highlights of the day (or night rather) was that i managed to get ngiel to come to chruch with me.. n when he came to pick me up.. i was wearing my boots (cos my beloved sister took my adidas sneakers w/o asking me, leaving me w/o any comfortable shoes to wear except my boots) n i was rushing down cos he was late.. n i missed a step, m y right leg twisted in.. n i fell... on my ankle. and after that i still went to svc in my high heels.... so now its really swollen n i can't walk properly... my daddy says that if its still swollen.. it might be a minor fracture. so pple please pray that it'll get better by wednesday cos i have my dance auditions coming up..!

so yea.. thats basically all that happened... i couldnt go for cg today cos i m now a bai ka who cant walk properly... so yea. this bai ka is gonna start on a crap essay she has to do for a teacher she doesnt like.. but well i just leanrt in svc that everything i do i do for Christ.. (eph 6:5-7 for peeps who wanna check it out) so i shall doa brilliant report..!

this bai ka is gonna hobble her way to the kitchen to get sum potato chips n start on her essay... muaks peeps more laterr....

it feels like ages since i last blogged................. just didnt feel like it, i guess. haha

been pretty busy with a whole bunch of stuff.. last two days have been spent with dancing on my mind... well my friend asked me to join them in joining the dance category for our school talentime auditions n of course i agreed since i've been missing dance soo much... it's been really long since i last stepped into a studio to practise, practise n practise. n i really miss it... all the practising over n over n over again. at least i dont look like a (i quote) spasticated chicken with parkinson's disease (ho hum.. who on earth could have said this...? hmm.. go figure. ;p) when i'm dancing.. so all's well. haha..

well tmr is my solo audition n i have given up on practising cos i m just so freaked out. hahaha.. i'll start freaking out again only if i get into the finals.. so yea.. more on that when i have updates.. but keep your fingers crossed aiight?? =)

ok i am so swamped with work.. my room is like a bomb exploded in it.. everything is everywhere n my mom is screaming her head off.. so i better go clean it up.. ahhaha.. more tonight.

"Who shall seperate us from the love of Christ? Shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword? ......
Yet in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us. For i am persuaded that neither death nor life, nor angels nor principalities nor powers, nor things present nor things to come, nor height nor depth, nor any other created thing, shall be able to seperate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord" Romans 8:35, 37-39

wow. i'm in awe. of the greatness of His love for me. it'l like.. NOTHING can seperate me from Him.. thats howw mucchh He loves me. I am simply speachless..... haha.. well i have so many verses i wanna talk about... i dont even know where to start or how to begin... haha.. let me collect my thoughts n i'll tell u whut i think.. but i think my blog is gonna be floooddeeddd with verses. how nice. =) more another time........ (ya i know this is so flow but i have alot of things i need to do.. so lets leave this to another time.. (= )


Holy Spirit come in power, change my heart.. i want to live for You my God.... So i yearn for You, long to see You move.. i lift my hands before my king and pray..

monday blues. the virus got me again. sumhow it always manages to get me on a sunday night. siannn....

how irritating. i was in a relatively good mood just now.. n i had finished typing a very happy, crappy, funny blog for u pple out there.. n for once.. i actually bothered to organize my thoughts n make it sui. but all of a sudden... my computer hung. n my post disappeared. poof. just like that. all gone. was so irritated.. gah this crappy comp of mine.. bleahz bleahz bleahz. ah well i cant be bothered to type all of that again. so forget it. i'm gonna go iron my school uni n go to bed. BLAH.

Hillsongs - Fall
I love to worship You, my God
I love to worship You, my Lord
And see Your Spirit fall in power
Your love unfolding
Gifts from heaven

I love to worship You, my God
I love to worship You, my Lord
And feel Your precious
Breath of heaven
Your all consuming love

Holy Spirit come in power
Change my heart
I want to live for You, my God
Let Your Spirit come in power
Change my life
That I may live for You my Lord
Fall on us Lord

So I yearn for You
Long to see You move
Lord, I lift my hands before my King and pray

Hillsongs - One Desire
You gave it all for me
My soul desire
My everything
All I am is devoted to You
How could I fail to see
You are the love that rescued me
And all I am is devoted to You

And oh, how could I not be moved
Lord here with You
So have Your way in me
Cause Lord there is just one thing
And that I will seek

This is my cry
My one desire
Just to be where You are Lord
Now and forever
It's more than a song
My one desire
Is to be with You
Is to be with You
Jesus

The one thing
The one thing I ask
Is to be with You

i was ranting yesterday.. just felt i had to get all those things out.. to clear my brain before my brain exploded. *imagines whot it'd look like for sarah's brains splattered all over her room... eeew.* so yea.. just to let ya'll know i'm fine. haha.... =)

anyway.

yesterday we thrashed bedok green's butts. was a great feeling to thrash them upside down. =) i think we won by 30 points.. or close to that.. cant rmb... haha. n for once, my dearest no. 6 (hmm.. who could that be?? go figure. ;p) was in a good mood.. n a miracle happened - ziyan joked with me!!!! hahahaha.. well.. for pple who r not in cchms (cchms stands for chung cheng high main school u ignoramus), u wouldnt have heard of the famous ziyan - pro bballer.. n so fierce she'll scare everyone away. LOL. nah i'm just exxagerating about the scare everyone away part... but she IS rather fierce.. n she used to throw me these really scary glares when she still was in cchms.. so yea.. i was kinda surprised.. hahaha... ;p

well i cant talk long.. this girl has gotta go bathe n go for cg... yayyy!! cg is finally back.. haha.. more later ya'll...! there's so much crap i wanna talk about.. bleahz. ;p

its funny u know. funny how well people are able to hide themselves from the world. funny how u could have known the person all your life n yet.. u've never seen who they are. funny how people are so good at putting masks to the world. bleahz. i just read a friend's blog. was shocked at the amount of things i dont know abt my friend. a startling realization that it IS very hard to find good friends in life. its the feeling... like... wanting to reach out.. taking the first step.. n yet finding it so hard to open up, after the covers we constantly disguise ourselves in. yes i know that the world is a very screwed up place.. n people put on layers upon layers to protect themselves.. but is this supposed to be happening in the place thats supposed to be setting an example for the world? starting to have doubts about sumthing i thought was a solid foundation..... sumthing i never doubted has become shaky.. my foundation is vanishing into thin air.. whut i thot was real, whut i thot was fact.. is now becoming more n more blur to me......... how can a people who claim God lives in them actually live a life like that? sumhow.. i feel that we r the best at hiding whut we really mean.. all sincerity is lost.. we're left with a bunch of people pretending to be happy when we feel like crap on the inside. or at least thats whut i've been doing.....

so i ask myself, is this part of growing up? all the faking.... all the learning how to smile when u feel bad.. pretending to laugh when u feel like crying.. why is life so screwed? i sudenly see the magnitude of how screwed up a world we live in.. i mean.. i've heard it lotsa times - i've even used the phrase on countless occasions.. but sumhow it just hit me today. why does growing up involve learning how to put masks on urself? if one is able to be totally honest with the people around him.. i say that he is blessed. cos i havent found anyone who i can totally share my feelings with.. n i'm sure most people feel the same way.

i was talking to a friend a week back.. n he told me that my teenage years are the time to discover myself. but how do u discover urself when all u learn is how to hide who u really are? or does no one have a true self? are we all like chameleons? just, as i always say, "going with the flow, dude.."? its like.. behind all the smiles, all the laughters.. all the times we crap amongst friends... do we feel any true joy? where is that joy we're supposed to have deep within our spirits..? the one that isnt fake.. the one that comes from deep within u.. like a rushing wind.. when all u can do is laugh so hard that u feel ur body is gonna break.. (lemme digress abit here - this is why i never ever go clubbing, or get drunk. cos all i need is the holy spirit filling me with His joy.. n i'm already delirious. hah) i miss that feeling. its been a long time since i felt joyful.. its been a long time since i had a heart to heart talk with anyone.. its been a long time since i ever felt anything real... anything of substance... i'd cry if i could, but i dont feel a thing. i feel nothing. i'd cry if icould.. but i cant. so just whot m i doing with this life i've been given?? ughh.. i'm crap.

i wonder how many people there are that i really know.

i wonder if i'm really as grown up as i wanna be.

i wonder if growing up can really be fun.

i wonder when is the next time i can smile... n really mean it.

i wonder alot dont i? blahz....
sarah's jaded.

just changed my template. think this is cute... since valentine's day is cuming. LOL. ah well.. i have 2 tests tmr.. both subjects r topics i m totally clueless abt.. blleeaauurrgghhhhhzzz.. shall get to studying in just a while...................... i just wanted to come online n type something.............................................. there i've typed it. lol.
more later.......................................

sarah is half dead

Fell in love with a boy
I fell in love once and almost completely
He's in love with the world
And sometimes these feelings can be so misleading
He turns and says "are you alright"
Oh i must be fine coz my heart's still beating
Come and kiss me by the riverside

Can't keep away from the boy
The two sides of my brain need to have a meeting
Can't think of anything to do
My left brain knows all love is fleetin'
He's still looking for something new
I said it once before but it bears repeating

Joss Stone - I Fell In Love With a Boy

dont really know whot to blog.. have been feeling a bit.. weird lately? hmm... i shant say much abt why i'm feeling off.. cos there r just too many people reading this blog.. ;p so ya we'll leave it at that until i resolve it. haha...

today we won our match agains ngee ann by 10 points.. was not bad lah the match.. haha.. to think i took a cab n rushed down to watch the match.. but at least we're gonna get into the next rounds.. so.. yay. =D hahaha.. hopefully we'll win our match against DHS... n i really hope i get to go watch the match.. cos the match is at 1.. so if i can go, i'll be able to leave school at 12.. so shiok!! ;p den can slack.. hehehehe..

anyway.

i'm really in no mood to talk.. got alot of things on my mind.. but its nuthing i can type here.. bleeaauurrgghhh. ok forget it. i'll go blast good music. haha

.music.for.your.soul. =>
clint black - desperado

my fingers a freezing. they r numb. i'm pretty sure they'll drop off any moment. i'm sitting in my bro's room and its really colddd cos the air con is turned down waayyy low.

anyway.

just wanted to let u pple know i got his number already. that guy i got bored with. i promised an update so here it is. =) even tho it took really loonngg.. at least i did get it. so ya. its over n done with.. am actually quite proud of myself.. in a really lamified way.. ah well. enough abt this.. (i've learnt my lesson.. next time no more promises on this blog)

ok i am off to sleep dear people. more tmr after my test. =) muaks

yum yum.. i'm really stuffed. just got back form dinner with my beloved grandma... n she is so cute lor!! haha.. she drank coke n ate ice cream.. haha.. my grandma is the coolest.. she rocks!! =D

well its been a loonngg day.. i went to church today. n i finally got to see pst kong!!! ahhh!!! i'm like.. his fan.. well i know it sounds weird.. but yea.. i'm his biggest fan.. hehe.. it's like.. when u love two people the way chc members love pst kong n pst. sun, its really cool lah.. haha. its kinda hard to explain.. but its sumthing like.. u admire/respect/love them sooo much; that even tho they dont know who u are, u r happy that u can see them.. yea.. sumthing like that. lol

i cant believe its a new month already.. i'm slowly starting to get into studying gear.. n i'm really quite lazy, but i'd better buck up this year if i dont want crap results. blleeuurrgghh. so i have been paying attention in class (altho i m very happy i dont have to see ms sharmila for 3 periods tmr.. =D) n trying to get in gear.... ah this week have a whole week of tests coming.. how boring. i will have to start slogging. boinkz

which reminds me. i have a chem test on tuesday. gah i better go study before i dont have mood.. boink. zoink. doink... blleeaauuurrgghhh. more tonight. hehe

guess whut. i'm still at my mom's fren's house... am a bit cold cos the aircon in this room is really cold... so ya.. my hands are shaking as i type. bleaauurrgghh.. anyway.. today was a relatively good day.. am so glad that my beloved grandma is aiight.. haha.. so i went to aunty veron's house.. n surprisingly, i managed to click with nigel (her son). he is.. errmm.. 21 i think.. ya.. ok lah i wasnt surprised i can click with him becos of his age.. but becos he's.. nigel. yea. lol... well lets just say i had a preconcieved impression about him.. yea.. so have to learn how to not make any judgements... yeea...

anyway. i wanted to talk about death.. well.. more about a loved one dying.. i know my grandma's fine for now.. but yesterday really got me thinking.. about how its gonna be like when she's gone. i mean... i know she's gonna go soon.. how soon.. i hope longer better.. but still. she's already 80.. how much longer can she live? n if she does get another stroke.. bleeeuurrghhh.. my dad said sumthing about lettingher rest even if the doctors find she has a blood clot... well i wont go into details. dont know how to say all this... but nvm. i'lll tell u another time...

i'm freezing. forget it. more later. blah. bye