i just have to post before our finals tomorrow. am super nervous... or actually.. its excited. thankfully, my fear is slowly dissipating and i'm left with a whole load of adrenaline. thump. thump. thump u can hear my chest pumping... don't think i can sleep tonight.. altho am quite tired considering i only had 4 hours of sleep last night. and tmr i am waking up at 6 to go to church.. can u believe it. total insanity. i dont even wake up so early to go to school.. n yet i am willingly disturbing my sleep to go all the way down to boon lay... but dont get me wrong; i love going down. church is just the best play to be. =D (ya i just know my mom is gonna tell me to apply this attitude to school.. but its just different.) haha.. altho i think that i wont be able to sleep much anyway... on the account that my brain is just running through all the phrases... n double checking the puncutation, n triple checking my references.......... doubt that i can concentrate during the 2nd session with pst kong. i'll be too distracted... ok. shall confess positive things.

deut 28:13 (summarized version)
the LORD will make me the head n not the tail; i shall be above only, and not be beneath.

1 john 4: 17-18
love has been perfected among us in this: that we may have boldness in the day of judgement; because as He is, so are we in this world. there is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear, because fear involves torment. but he who fears has not been made perfect in love.

psalms 1:2-3
but his delight is in the law of the LORD, and in His law he meditates day and night. he shall be like a tree planted by the rivers of water, that brings forth its fruit in its season, whose leafalso shall not wither; and whatever he does shall prosper.

yea man... feel so much better.. by God's grace we r gonna set a standard for the Word Power competition that even in the years to come they'll still rmb us as a team who emerged and glorified God. ok.. all fear has turned into anticipation. man i am so ready for this... it is time to win it babyyyy!!!!!

ok. am going to sleep now. this girl here needs to get her beauty sleep if not she'll look terrible in front of the cameras tmr. hah. (n yups it a good sign that i am still concerned about my looks. means i'm not that nervous. which is a good sign. teehee. =D)
so yups.. i can do all things thru Christ AMEN!!!!!! X))))))))

oh yippeeee. just to let ya'll know - we're in the finals. yups. by the grace of God, we topped the semis. like.... *sarah can hardly maintain her dont care attitude* FINALS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! woooohoooooooo~~~~!!!!!!!!! i m one step closer to being the proud n happy owner of a new dell desktop. can hardly wait. X)))))))) altho the excitement n anticipation of being on the church stage with a couple thousand pple watching me is really freaky. already in the semis i totally freaked n stoned... dunnoe whut it'll be like lor... man i m gonna drill so hard that we can definitely do it...... den i'll come back with more bril news. hehe.

which reminds me.... i now have a secret fetish (if u would actually call it a fetish.. its just sumthing i enjoy doing) which come to think of it is not so secret anymore on the acocunt that i m posting it on my blog.... anyway. so yups i have this fetish for..... *drumroll for dramatic effect* plucking slugs off my mommys newly aquired water feature. okok before the girls cringe n turn green while they read this... i have to say that it really is extremely enjoyable. just love grabbing them of the pebbles they fasten themselves onto.. n flick them off n out of the window. so fun. hehe. actually quite mean come to think of it... but if i dont get rid of them... then they'll grow bigger n multiply n spoil the plants in the water feature...! cannot right? ya. so i must get rid of the first. it's like a mission of mine to eradicate all slugs. to destroy them. so fun. hehe. *evil grin*

ok. so i've confessed my secret fetish. plan to go n bathe cos i just got home from a really fab day with a fren of mine... so yeaps. am happy happy happy. =D n later can pick slugs... muahahahhaa.

laters.

the heavens are rejoicing. i can hear the angels sing cos.....

my exams are over!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

all the elation is going to my head n i actually feel quite lightheaded now. haha.. in fact i feel like a bubble.. just floating around.. like when u play with those soap bubbles when u're a little kid.. n u just start blowing n blowing.. ok i digress. anyway.. the exams are finally over.. so am pretty glad about that.. dont think i'll get my four A's tho.. haix... i am already saying bye to my dream of going to this huge roxy shop to shop like mad... *sigh* ah well we'll see how it goes next week when i get all my papers back.

so later is my word power semis and man i am so excited.. and freaked out... and super freaked out.. n super duper freaked out... i have butterflies in my stomach.. i'm getting the jitters... turning green, purple, blue.. ah i'm changing colour every 5 minutes.. (and no, it's not good that i look n feel like a chameleon) i feel like i am going to barf. ah well i can do ALL things in Christ who is with me n so i am so getting into the finals. yups. can do it. no fear. this is gonna be my time to emerge..

ok. really have no mood to blog. too scared.

oh ya. our group name is SNG (Sheep, Not Goat). cool right? hahahaha.. altho as my sis pointed out, it could be Super Nice Goat but ah well... thats not whut we are.. we r sheep... baaaahh.. or is it meeehhhh...? ok. i digress. so yups. SNG is gonna win. hehe

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ooooooooooo!!!!! we got into the semis of word power!!!!!!!!!!! PTL!!!!!!!!!! hahahaha.... am so elated.. overjoyed.. n thats not all, turns iout we got the highest score for both rounds... n really have to say that it's thru God's grace we managed to keep everything together.. even when i was sick last week n everything. (speaking of which i have this really super irritating cough. man i must bind this stupid sickness ler. so irritating) n we didnt get into talentime finals.. but i wasnt as disappointed as i thot i'd be... so thats ok. at least we had a bril time going jamming.. so really happy with that. ah well i have another 20 verses to memorize.. so shall talk mroe another time i guess..

oh ya update on exams. quite disappointed with geog. study so hard... in the end no time to complete the paper. whut a waste. ah well....

ok nvm... i shall focus on word power. i can just smell the desktop. lol

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wow. to finally be able to sit here n type.... i miss it sooooo much u will not believe how much i love the sound of my keyboard tap tap tapping away.. =) well it seems like forever since i last blogged.. read my previous two entries n they both sounded so similar... its like its almost a ritual for me to get sick on sundays.... ah that wont happen this week. X)

anyway have 4 papers down, 5 more two go. can't wait for the end of this whole thing.. been quite mad this week.. went for word power round 2 and talentime auditions... did pretty ok for both of them... for word power.. well i'll know results tonight in svc.. but have a pretty good feeling abt it. =D so yups... really hope that we'll make it all the way.. even to the finals. haha.. n auditions were well... nerve wracking..!!! hahahaha... seeing pst zhuang, pst audrey, pst. aries.. n all those pple just staring at us.. well.. it went pretty alright lah.. just that i forgot the 1st line of the song.. so i started at the 2nd line.. but ben did his thang n it was just ab fab man!!! tell u ah... bro david looked impressed with him.. n all the judges looked surprised when they heard the first few notes of our song... almost as if there was a sense of familiarity.. (well how could they not right. it was Deep Purple - Smoke On The Water... hahaha...) n ya also the fact that we were doing something so pure rock... was brilliant lah. praying that we were one of the few who has a guitar solo (and a good one might i add) in our audition.. n that we received good marks for it... pst aries kept smiling n he n pst zhuang n a few others even clapped when we finished! hahahaha.. so yeaps.. am kinda hoping we were good enough for this years finals... but ah well even if we weren't, i'm still pleased that we actually made it to auditions n we didnt screw everything up.... =) ya the auditions really made me rmb whut it was like to sing in front of big crowd.. felt great actually. hhe.. so mebbe i'll go hunting for auditions n stuff in the june hols... ah well it all depends. haha..

ah well its back to me learning how to grow rice. tmr have my elect. geog paper. dont think i'll ever need to know abt wet rice cultivation.. but ah well.. work is good. so yups.. back to stuffing my head with info. (n i m actually enjoying it. yippeee)

crossing my fingers n toes n hair n eyes n feet n tongue n every past of my body that can be crossed hoping we get into word power n talentime.

sarah's crossed. haha.. laters

ok. havent been blogging cos been so busy with school exams, word power, talentime, church, cg.. well i've been going abit crazy for the past few days. so u must be wondering why i can still come online n post a blog entry which is basically talking nonsense. well, i am sick. yups. had flu, fever, cough, sorethroat, runny nose.. basically the whole package. n it hit me last night so i felt like i was dying last night. today felt better.. went to see doc in the morning, n went to cg n jamming after that. jamming was pretty ok lah.. think we did alright.. but dunnoe if it's good enough...... ah well. leave it to God. and word power went pretty well last tuesday.. was quite good. next round is on tuesday,.. so shld be able to do it....

ok my medicine is making feel super drowsy i think i'll go n sleep now. so much for a nice post.

laters.

ok been a long time since i went for youth service.. n today i went for youth service cos i couldnt make it for my own service n it was just good lah.. worship was like.. today i just didnt wanna stop singing.. cos it was just so brilliant.. finally sang one of my all time fave worship songs 'carry me' in church today.. n it was like.. the words so appropriate for how i was feeling.. cos i was still quite burdened abt whut happened on friday.. so it was just bril. i dont think the hurt will actually heal so quickly.. not as if i cant think abt it.. btu when i do.. there's always this tinge of regret, of disappointment.. i think that will take awhile.. but everything is in God's hands... so yeaps i have no worries. X))))))))

so was on the shuttle bus on the way to church when i bumped into you yi.. and we were just takling on the way to church.. n he made this comment abt me having alot of guy friends.. cos everytime he sees me i m always surrounded by guys.. n i m usually the only girl.... so i immediately told him that i m not interested in guys right now blahblah.. n he just laughed n said he totally understood cos i was just one the friends that guys have.. as in i'm another one of their guy friends.. its just that i'm a girl.... n ya that kinda stuck with me until after the svc... was actually wondering why pple would think i m a flirt.. n ya i kinda figured that it's just their misconception of me, becos they do not know me or my character, and so they make groundless accusations of me. i m not a flirt. i am merely sumone who socializes well with most people, regardless of gender. ya. so i was kinda happy with you yi's explanation of me.. cos admittedly i do have alot of guy friends, more guy friends than girl frens i might add.. so pple think i m a flirt.. but ok to clear the misconcecption.. i am not a flirt. i know i am not. cos i wont do sumthing that degrades myself or makes me cheap.

yups. that's all i wanna say for today... n oh ya i have a flu so dont think will be goign to schl tmr... yippeee. x)))))))))))))))))))

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Hillsongs - Carry Me
You lead me in to Your courts
Surround me with Your love
I walk with You
I do not fear

In this place
Dreams are made
In this place
Where You are
Carry me here
In Your arms of love
Draw me close to You
I want to be where You are
I want to be where You are

You carry me, You are my strength
I've learnt to trust in You
And once again
I'm reaching out

it is finally over. i am so relieved, happy, n proud of my schl.. one of those rare moments where i actually love my school to bits. its like when all of us had to sing the schl song.. i just stood up n sang super loud.. n the whole auditorium was singing the school song... admittedly it was a bril. performance n everyone worked really hard; well almost everyone (shall go into the dramarama later). n i really have to say its a bril experience.. but its kinda hard for me to get into taking mid years mode.. nvm i shall worry abt my mid years tmr. so the performance was great, made a whole bunch of new friends.. pple i didnt kno existed before the performance.. n it was really great to just be there in all the chaos. n behind the scenes.. when u see all the pple.. wow it was just fab. loved every second of it. =D

so now onto the dramarama. had quite alot of things happen the past few days.. things which hurt me alot.. but yea i m over it so can talk abt it more freely nw. will try to give an unbiased accnt of whut happened, but its gonna be pretty hard since it is after all,from my p.ov n its about me. yups.. oh ya. disclaimer: i m NOT mentioning any names here.. so u pple out there cant pin anything on me cos this is MY ranting space n these are my opnions. i aint showing disrespect for sum people out there. so ya.. u just go figure out who i m talking abt urself. so lemme tell ur the soap story.. started on thursday when sum people sumhow lost their sense of timing n turned up 40 minutes late so me n my chopstick sister were super pissed with some pple. so when other people (hmm these people are older people.. as in.. people who.. errmm.. hmmm.. are older in schl.. so go figure who they are..) came into the stage door i just started ranting to them abt how irresponsible pple can be. (ok things in bold are my afterthoughts.. just so u know.) looking back it was my bad to have just ranted off like that.. but yea i was super pissed n i was like that.. but yeaps i'll change by grace of God so one of the poeple who came in scolded me and said that pple didnt like my attitude. so as quite pissed with that person n all the other people that came in after that.. until those irresponsible people finally came. n we settled everything that happened on thursday.. n that was that. so yesterday nuthing happened until just before the show n the irresponsible people brought us to a certain room to have a talk with us. ok i have to say, that that was super stupid of them.. i mean.. making us all upset just before the show.. whut if we forgot the sequence becos we were so upset?? couldnt they have met us earlier? i mean.. where r their brains?????? oh ya, i forgot. they dont have any sense of timing, and brain for that matter. n immediately they started accusing me of things i didnt do. noe: accusing me when it was a talk about all of us n even called me a bimbo, a flirt, cheap, crude, crass, n rude. can u believe it. call themselves people who are passionate about their job n say they care for the students under them n actually call me names. eeeks their disgusting. so i was obvously super pissed cos they said i was flirting with some guys n i had a serious attitude problem. but when i asked them whut the problem was they refused to tell me whut i did tha displeased those high n mighty stuck up snobs so much.. n they even said that there were alot of complaints about me coming from alot of other departments and alot of other people. which was totally unfair to me cos they didnt even justify their accusations. n i have to say that i'd have accepted all those criticisms politely if they ever did whut they were supposed to do.. cos all those irresponsible pple dont even do their jobs. they just complain about how it isnt part of their actual job and that they are sooo noble to actually be there to 'supervise' us. i think all they do is turn oxygen into carbon dioxide cos they gossip so much. eeeks. n after that we thot we'd go n start the show but they actually tried to force me out of the theatre.. which was like.. hello?!?! whut is up with them no respect for me at all which was total bull even tho they may be older than me n all.. ya. so i strongly refused to leave n i even explained whut happened to clear all those crap accusations and after that everythng was initially alright until the end of the show where i saw zhen lao shi n she saw me crying (before the show) cos i was really so upset that they called me all those names and all i said to her was "byeee!! i tell u abt the soap opera tmr!!! see u!!" ya n i just left feeling really happy cos the first performance was a success. n abt 10 minutes after that one of those irresponsible pple caleld me n said that i had behaved badly when i said that zhen lao shi n i was like.. oh man whut crap is this.. so total rubbish. was sooo extremely pissed. n today a whole bunch of other things happened but i wont go into details cos it'll just make me even more pissed.. so yeaps. thats about it. think i didnt give a very accurate accnt of whut happened since its just my side of the story... but ya i finally managed to get it all off my chest. yups

well i think that the irony is that times like these show me that i actually love my schl, i love the majority of the student population, as in i m super proud of them for doing such a great job.. but on the other hand i dont ever want to be associated with the older population of my schl cos they r horrible at whut they do n they shld just go find another job.. becos if they continue like that, they'll leave alot of students traumatized with all the false accusations those idiots throw at them. ya. i think cchms students worked really hard for the production n i m so proud of all of them but to those pple i was talking about.. i feel sorry for u that have to live such a miserable pathetic life where all u can do is teach a bunch of kids u dont even like. n dont try to pretend u actually enjoy ur job cos i can totally see it in ur eyes.. u pple dread ur job n u do it for the sake of doing it. doing it cos u likle the perks n u think its a safe job. well i think u guys shld find other things to do with ur life instead of make other students miserable with ur lousy pple skills. blahz.

ok. i talked alot. got everything off my chest so i m not angry anymore. feel so much better.

i just lurve my blog where i can have my own ranting space.


laters.

tired = beat, beat up, burned out, consumed, distressed, dog-tired, done in, drained, droopy, enervated, fagged, faint, fatigued, fed up, finished, narcoleptic, overtaxed, overworked, petered out, played out, pooped, pooped out, prostrated, run-down, sleepy, spent, stale, tuckered out, wasted, weary, whacked, worn, worn out

so i am feeling all of the above right now.. am so exhausted i m sure tmr i need tonnes of make up to cover my extremely horrible eyebags... but decided to come online to tok nonsense n make myself less stressed. overall i think the whole esplanade experience is just brilliant; altho taxing n tiring n so pressurizing.. its a really bril experience n it's so cool to be able to say that i've worked at the esplanade before. rocks man. =)

ah well m really very tired.. will give u the full cover story abt all the nasty things pple do behind the scenes of a show..... nah i m just kidding there aint no nasty things.. not yet anyway.. hopefully there'll be some hair pulling cat fighting tmr. hehe. i'm just evil. haha.. ;p so yeaps.. more on sunday~~

2 more days of running around like a headless chicken.

i cant wait for sunday

laters~

have so much good news.. ~~~~~ am so pleased. just bought a new mini.. hehehe... the mini at topshop i've been eyeing ever since i went out with natalie that day.. wahahaha.. so pleased that i finally got it. =D so my darling xiu ling actually came all the way to paragon just for me.. n ya she came along with me n my parents to eat sashumi n stuff. so yum yum n props to my darling for being so fab. hehehe..

and well another piece of good news is the fact that i got an a2 for my chinese test!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! man i was so elated lor.. 70.5... whahahahahahaa... so my studying so hard was not in vain.. so am gonna work harder~~!!! was so inspired n blessed during service yesterday.. cos we were finishing the keys to unlocking ur potential.. n the last key was actually to
work. n working actually releases ur potential.. to strive for something.. man.. tell u ah.. when i listened to pst. kong preach.. was super inspired.. i'm gonna study so hard i'll be the best student i can be for Christ~~!!!! so that i'll uncover my potential.. fulfill my destiny.. it was like.. i suddenly saw a purpose in my studying lor.. after all these years where i think that studying is pointless.. now i'm gonna use it as a it opportunity to glorify God.. man.. so excited.. n inspired..

ah well.. kinda tired cos i have been out the whole day n i just got back home. so i'll expand mroe on the work thing another time.

in the mean time, i m gonna be happily dreaming abt wearing my skirt. yippeee!! =D

minis rule.

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