your secrets are safe with me...
just let me be one of the the pages of your diary...

i love suprnova. it totally rocks. hahaha.

well i spent an unfruitful day at xiu ling's crib trying to study. the word here is trying. lol. we were talking so much rubbish, n i even fell asleep on her comfortable bed. then we were playing with her 4 crazy dogs. crazy. absolutely nuts. but i think queenie is very cute. hahaha..

note to self : don't go to xiu ling's house to study... but must go there for a slumber party after finals.

oh well, off to mug now.


groove to it => alicia key's - if i was your woman... in fact, just listen to the entire Diary album. amazing stuff.

today was my very first date with my beloved pumps.

i love her, she hates me. cos i have 3 blisters on my feet (worse than my charles n keith pair) n all i can say is... ouch. oh well, the price to pay for some amazing pumps. mebbe i should have bit my shoes b4 i wore them out today... u know the old wives tale... bite ur shoes so they dont bite u.... or at least thats whut yilin told me. lol.


dreaming of manolo's classic collection stilettos........

i'm out. X))))

i'm supposed to be studying... so what am i doing here? focus. focus, sarah ling. but yet... this is so much more fun. if only i could take a blog examination. where they test u on ur knowledge for blogging and such. i wouldnt mind so much, i'd even practise alot. hah.

for some strange reason, i've seem to have already planned whut i wanna do after the finals; mainly: go out, go out, go out, shop, shop somemore, go out, go out, go to sentosa for a nice suntan, go out, go out... which is not good, in case you were wondering. i'm supposed to be freaked out about my finals... but i'm not?! ok. i'm freaked out about not being freaked out... does that count? sumhow i don't think so.

on a more cheerful note, i have successfully understood the whole acid bases n salts thing.. now i just have to get down to memorizing the valenc table.. plus all those chemical analysis things. after that, we're done with chem!! whheee!!! [altho my math doesnt seem to have any improvement. i think i'm such a nitwit when it comes to math. some people are just not meant to do math - and i'm one of them. arrgghh.] plus, i get to wear my newly aquired pumps tmr! woohoo!!

*oh i just realized something. alicia keys doesnt have good fashion sense, judging from the pics i see on style.com. her fashion sense is sumwhat eclectic... n unfortunately she just doesnt pull the look off.

ok i digress. haha*

okie fellows, i've gotta go back to my studying. i'm outta here.

my illness =>
suffering from logarithmgitis. severe disease after too much exposure to a math logarithm. the only people succeptible to this horrid disease are those who hate a math, especially log.

cure=>
loooonnngggg dosages of style.com's coverage on the london spring RTW fashion week. also, take a packet of M&Ms before and after dinner. and if u're feeling terrible, just pop some more.


guaranteed effective methods in curing logarithmgitis.

hah.

ok, back to the dreaded TYS. laters.

God help me.....

wow been a loonnngg time since i blogged a nice long post. i miss blogging. but now have no time to blog.... mugging mugging mugging. whut else do i do besides mugging? MUG. lol

but today i've been a naughty girl, cos i fell asleep on my bed after my shower and then when i woke up it was time to go out for dinner with my parents. cos it's their wedding anniversary. don't ask me why i went, but they asked me to join them, so we went to PS to fix my mom's ultra screwed motorola phone [i am not a phone of motorola. i repeat. i am not a fan of motorola.] n we had dinner.. n then walked around.. but that's not the highlight of the evening.. the highlight of the evening was that i went to x:odus n bought a pair of pumps!!!

yayyyy!!!!! i've been wanting to get a nice pair of pumps for ages... [for u ignoramuses out there, pumps is NOT puma's couz (like whut some nutter sggested). pumps are like ballet shoes, only better, n cooler, n nicer, n more fabulous, n beautiful, n i'm gushing. lol] so ya my mom thinks its weird cos i'm not a pumps kinda girl.. more of sports shoe run jump scream about kind. but yes mommy, i'm growing up. lol.

ok so thats about my new acquired pumps, onto fashion!!!! miss talking about fashion, n since the emmy's were this morning, i shall do my usual judging of major fashion blunders n bee-u-ties.

jennifer anniston - wonderful classic chanel. karl lagerfield is amazing n this babe never goes wrong. btw, she looks great with brad pitt. lol. so i'd have to say i love this dress.

sarah jessica parker - first of all i have to say... I LOVE HER!!!!! n well, karl lagerfield loves her too... lol. so its no surprise she's in chanel.. but it looks a bit like the one she wore at the oscars earlier this year. the whole tube dress with tons of frills n lace... she always looks fabulus. heee.. i'd also have to say i love this dress.

mischa barton - errr.. all i can say is.. she looks anorexic. n that dress doesnt look good on her.. its like a dress on a hanger? sorry babe, u're hot and all, but u're not doing the dress justice. then again... i'm not a big fan of maggie norris, n this dress just looks weird. shapeless n all.. with all that brown... eeeks. the tribal thing isnt going down with me. so.. i'd have to say i dont like this dress. *ducks in case eugene wants to whack me with stick. lol*

amber tamblyn - the dress makes her look old. wassup with the bun hair? so.. maggie gyllenhall only skinnier? ya. not a fan of randolph duke, and the dress is just plain. no unverstated elegance, just plain. so... i dont like it. yea.

jennifer garner - well done with the accessories! love the earrings.. not crazy over the dress tho. oscar de le renta's dress reminds me of my mom's wedding dress. tons of frills n puffy. but no complaints, this babe actually manages to pull it off. =)

mariska hargitay - don't know who the hell she is.. but she's in vera wang... whut more is there to say? =D

debra messing - michael kors.. the dress looks kinda stiff, but mebbe its just the photo n the angle. so dont like her bracelet thingy, n this dress aint that flattering on her.. so... yea. not nice to me.

kim cattrall - this is another babe who hardly goes wrong on the red carpet. from her amazing vintage valentino at the oscars to her pamella roland dress.. she just looks fabulous. love the frills at the bottom.. n the dress just compliments her so well. love it.

kristin davis - whut can i say? the women of sex and the city never go wrong fashion wise. in this wannabe mortisha adams prada dress.. she looks beautiful. just enough accessories n not too much make up to make her look ultra natural which such a great bod. love it.

edie falco - she looks scary. seriously.

teri hatcher - one of the best dressed of the night!!!!! AMAZING elie saab couture dress.. not too complicated till the pt of gaudiness, but just enough to be so haute couture. love it love it love it. X))))))

allison janney - she looks like a fruit. n it aint a compliment.

janel maloney - vera wang!!! very summer dress, n yes a great fit. after all, it is a vera wang dress. lol.



ok. so that about all the fashion i have for today.. typed a whole bunch.. n i havent even talked about spring 2005 NY fashion week?! DOTS. oh well. i declare best dressed teri hatcher cos she simply looks amazing. in an extremely close 2nd, there's a tie between jennifer n sarah jessica parker.

yups. enough fashion for one post i guess... lol

cheerios! X)))))

ok yes i know i'm nuts. n i'm supposed to be sleeping right now, but i just finished watching two chic flicks - mean girls and raising helen. raising helen was actually quite boring. booboo.

but i am officially a fan of lindsay lohan. she's TONS better than hilary duff, in acting, singing, in how she dresses, in how she looks, dances.. well she's a better performer than the wannabe barbie doll.

oh no. i'm too harsh. am i a mean girl? whut do u think?

more about other stuff another time. zero inspiration now.

night

i'm supposed to be at home sleeping, or at the beach playing with my darling couzie before he goes back to KL and i wont be able to see him until christmas... which is far too long imo.

but i'm not. instead, i was forced to go to school today and now i'm stuck in the computer lab of my silly school, with nothing to do but blog. and i won't get to see my couzie until christmas cos he would have already left by the time i reached home from school...

which totally sucks.

gonna miss that lil bugger so much...!! he's finally 4 yrs old (just turned 4 on sept 10) and he's adorable. he doesnt throw tantrums anymore... and he's such a darling with all the nonsense he does.... like jumping on my bed at 8 a.m asking me to play with him.. or catching the fishies in the water feature [he's becoming an expert, one of the best. altho he doesnt seem to realize fish need to be water to survive. he likes to take them out of the water for a few seconds then drop them back in. poor fishie, imo. lol]... to licking chocolate of my spoon... and kissing me for coco crunch... and even traumatizing my hammie....
i am going to miss him alot. its fun having so much noise in the house.. with him screaming like nobody's business when i tickle him.

n now instead of being at ome to spend time with him.. i'm in school, where i'm slacking like i told my mom i would but she didnt believe me and this is absolute crap..




ok i shall stop whining n be content. gotta go now. on to chemistry lesson. =S

oh p.s p.s! pst sun was fabulous last night!!! absolutely amazing. more abt that in another post. now my teacher is really gonna kill me if i don't get off. hah.

cheerios.

here i am
perfect as i'm ever gonna be -
you'll see

love me for me

stick around
i'm not the kinda girl you'd wanna leave -
you'll see

love me for me

i keep on falling in and out of love wit you

September 11 2001.

wow it's been 3 yrs since the 9/11 incident? ok. time flies. i still remember i was having my PSLE prelims. and in 3 years... whoooosh. so much has happened. the U.S of A is holding elections. n i do hope Bush stays in office. i don't like Kerry.. he seems to always be sitting on the fence.... and well....

ok i shan't talk US politics here because,
1. cos i don't know much.
2. talk for whut? i have other things i wanna talk about. lol.

but from whut i know about both candidates, i support Bush. yes ben, i support him. *prepares self for a debate with ben...* lol


so today is saturday. which means my one week break is almost over. and my exams are in less than a month.... oh goodness. time to get back to serious mugging, but somehow i'm not in the mood? yes. especially when studying physics and math and chinese... i get sleepy instead of wanting to study. this is bad. i should be mugging by now. ah well. i'll prob clock a few hours later.


caught the VMAs on mtv this afternoon. nothing interesting. couldnt compare to the kiss brit, madonna n xtina shared last year. altho this yr Alicia Keys blew me away, along with Stevie Wonder n Lenny Kravitz. she was amazing. absolutely stunning. with so much style, class, stage presence.... all i can say is

i want to watch her when she comes down to singapore!!!!!!!

sad sad sad. won't be able to see Miss Divine in the flesh. *insert sad sound in here instead of the usual haiz*

ok whutever. lol. [sherry please dont slap me on tuesday]

argh i'm gonna start singing to ashlee simpson.
yes, i finally managed to d/l her album!!! wooohooo!!! it's amazing. hahaha. so yes. off to bed jumping and singing lyrics on the top of my lungs with aircon on......

don't give me that look. i'm not crazy. it's a fun thing to do. hee

oh speaking of jumping, my silly foot has to get another few months rest. it's starting to depress me. no running, dancing, playing sports... sherry's dream, my nightmare. whut to do? rest. or at least thats whut the doc says. he also said i havent been taking care of it... which is not entirely true..... i mean, i havent been jumping around... much.. lol.



ok i'm off to do some jumping on my bed. yayyyy. X))))


p.s i do not edit posts i've already published. becos ultimately, my blog is for me, and you out there just have the privilege of reading it. hah.


cheerios.

whut makes up ur life? have u, that person sitting opposite ur computer screen reading my babblings, ever wondered what makes up your life? was talking to a couple of my friends and well they give me similar yet different answers. and it made me wonder what people live for...


cecilia said whut makes up her life is the people around her.

daniel said whut makes up his life is the relationships he has.

ben said whut makes up his life is his dreams.

nigel said whut makes up his life is whutever he does that makes him happy.

jasmine... [i'm saving the best for last. jas, feel honoured. =p]
she said that whut makes up her life is love.

whut makes up my life?
love and passion. love n passion for the things i do, the people i mix around with.. i think this is the 'substance' that differenciates a person who's just existing from someone who is living life to its fullest, and enjoying it.

so thats whut makes up my life. i am a very emo person u could say, but isnt that whut's most important? if i would have to choose between having my brain or having my heart, i'd choose my heart anyday, and twice on sundays. being passionate is whut makes life interesting. to do whut u love, n love whut u do. for me, passion is celebrating life. loving the people around me, loving the things i do.. be it singing, dancing, reading a good book, having a good chat.. all these things i love make my life fulfilled.

but it's not whut i live for.

the most important person who makes up my life, who is my reason for living is Jesus. He is whut ultimately drives me to embrace life, n more importantly, love people. yea i know this all sounds a bit flaky n spiritual.. but it's true.! i mean seriously, i wonder whut life would be without Jesus... its just so weird, n wrong. its like going to school without the teachers... get whut i mean? yea... He is the one i get out of bed for, why i want to become a better person, why i have dreams and strive toward them... it's all for Him n because of Him. how amazing.

ok there are tons of people i love.. n becos i've been inspired by my dearest cecilia, i just wanna name a few today to thank them for being a part of me. ok so it may start sounding like an acceptance speech, but bear with me. cos ur name just might be in the list. X)))

Jesus - the author and finisher of my faith, the light of the world, the way, truth, n life. the son of God Himself made man. He's the creator who doesn't charge for oxygen, gave me sight to see the wonders He created.... this is the guy who loved me n taught me to love. to Him i owe everything.

Yilin - my all time favourite babe in the world. she is my cell grp leader, the person i get the most scoldings from.. the one who loves me like her own kid. she's an awesome lady who taught me how to be responsible n to love people. she's the one i can call when i need some sound advice at 2 in the morning. her dedication and her level headed-ness makes her AMAZING.

Jasmine, Pas, Ber, Lee Ling - my babes!!!!!!! the people i can call when i need help with cg matters.. the ultimate crappers n the ones whom i can call whenever i need them. dependable, trustworthy. we all have our down moments, but we're always there for each other. thank u for being in church n cellgrp no matter rain or shine. jas - i love my talks with u. u're my all time fave goth chic. pas - the usher!!! hahaha.. u're a great usher. n the only indian i know who talks chinese. love u loads babe!!!! lee ling - u talk like a bullet. n u're a chad fan like me!! ur passion for ur schl work is amazing. love u!!!!! ber - the smallest of us all, but dont let anyone tell u u aren't fabulous ok. from being such a notti kid.. now to see u love God so much. so proud of u and i love u..!!!!! gals, lets do it all for Jesus!!!!!

e279 - my beloved cellgroup!!!!!!!! all of u, i love u soooooo much. its more than words can say. from egan my fellow jammer, to kelvin the silent one.. eugene the 'maximized man'.. all of u mean alot to me. thank u for being in this cell group.. just seeing u guys every week makes me super happy.. X))))

my 'band' - ben.. ur guitar solos still blow me away. ur love for music inspires me. X))) egan, u r the coolest drummer i know. jas, i love ur voice. its wonderful harmonizing with u. tianwan - bassist!!!! how solid can u get?? guys, we gotta go jamming soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

aaron - lazy pig!!!! aaron aw jia quan [took me how many yrs to finally know ur chinese name LOL] aawwww.. the tons of things i know about u is enough to fill a book. i can blackmail u with all the little secrets i know.... so u better not make me angry.. hahaha.. all the times i can call u n whine n bitch n complain n cry... thank u for not slamming the phone down on me n being there for me n even buying me chocolate when i'm grumpy. u're one amazing bro i have n we're chums for life yea!! love u!!!!!

bus mates, old n new. - my supper ministry!!! daniel, even though u drive me insane with ur bitching, i love u all the same.. u r a wacky dude. n i'm still waiting for my vertu phone... wei zhong, u r one patient fellow. the fact that u put up with me giving u a wardrobe make over just shows that u r extremely patient n extremely generous. thanks for being there.

natalie - the ultimate fashionista!!!!! from all the eating hokkien mee, to going shopping in paragon... babe, i love u tons for who u are, whut u do, ur brilliant dancing, ur big personality that just blows me away, u are someone i can always find something to talk about.. ur passion for life, ur astounding crapping skills, ur great sense of fashion n ur great artistic talent... whut more can i say? i'm blessed with someone like u.

schoolmates from church esp. cecilia, chui laam, xue jun - gals thanks for sharing the vision with me. lets run this race together!! history's in the making n revival's happening!!! thanks for sacrificing ur recesses to come n share God's word n pray with me... whut we sow in tears (n in hunger), we will reap in joy yea!!!!

my dears from school - xiu ling, li xian, joy, wilbur and all the other girls i hang with in 3 gr '04... u make class tons of fun. wilbur, singing the spongebob squarepants song makes u mad but u still bear with me. i love talking crap with u n laughing over the silliest things at the back row.. ur artistic talent makes me wanna learn how to draw.. i still have my chad michael murray pic!! hahaha.. my darling xiu ling - u r such a princess, but u r a generous person n i love u soo very much. can't believe i thought u were a super bimbo at the start of the year... well u are a super bimbo still, but i love u for it. X))))) thanks for inspiring me to study n intro-ing F.I.R to me!! haha.. i'm totally hooked LOL. n yes we will go take neo print soon ok!

other school mates - sherry!!!! i love crapping with u during chinese lessons. u r one cool chic who's such a movie buff.. ur chinese is so powerful.. ur english is fabulous, we gotta go catch a movie together sometime soon yea!!!! gy, my chopstick sis!!!! thanks for taking pudge a.k.a lancelot in.. u're a sis i love so much. X)))))

so there u have it. most of the people who make up my life. these amazing people i have the privilege of knowing. if u're not on this list, it doesnt mean i've forgotten u, its just that my hand's really tired already lol. but thank u so much for being a part of me n making me who i am. most importantly thanks to Jesus, the guy who totally rocks my world.



ok i am finally gonna go catch sum shut eye now.

cheerios. X))))

what do u think of when u think of me?

this post is for lee ling becos....


she's a chad fan like me!!!!! [oh ya babe, he's 23. i got stuff mixed up. ooops. :S] b that i am a huge, huge, huge fan of chad michael murray. i think he's divine. X))))) ith his smile, his eyes, his stature... *swoons*

lol.

n i'm gonna watch him today! yippee!

X)))))

my blog's screwed.

but today was a good day. yesterday was bril too. and tomorrow's gonna be even better.

ok i have no inspiration. i'm just here to talk rubbish cos i'm bored. lol

laters

meredith brook's bitch has been my anthem for the past week. feels good to blast it and sing it at the top of my lungs while jumping on my bed. lol.

well bog readers, i bring glad tidings!!! my mommy's promised to buy me a dog for christmas!!! but there's this teeny weeny condition.......

i have to keep my room neat until christmas. n thats kinda hard for me. [hard? thats the understatement of the month. lol] cos i am a born messy person. cos i can't stand it when my room looks to neat. it's just not me. even though i do occasionally get monica gellar moments, but i'm more of a pheobe. or joey. whoever's more messy. lol

i'm pretty sure my mommy thinks i wont be able to do it, thats why she made this bargain with me.. but still. i will keep my room neat. i have to. so guys, please remind me to pack my room. when u think of me, think of my messy room. n then tell me to go n pack it. hahahahaha. so i'll have a new baby in my family by december. wont that be cool!

yay. X))))))))

i just realized. the divine Alicia Keys is dropping by our small little island to perform on 7th October, 2004!!!!!!!!

but the tickets are crazily expensive.

boohoo.

so who wants to sponsor me???? X))))) *flashes pearly whites*

ok thats all. lol.

cheerios

chem test tomorrow. and my chem is supposed to be good? i've been more or less clueless about the whole acids,bases, salts thing. i mean... HELP!!! but i have no mood to study. maybe later.

so here i am blogging, even though have no inspiration n no clue on whut i wanna talk about. but who cares? its my blog, n u're the silly person who bothers to come to my blog n read my babblings. so bear with me.

lol.

i can't believe the school year is coming to an end... it seemed like yesterday that i realized i was a proud secondary 3 student who could torture all the small sec 1 kiddies; n last week that i was the super nerd who buttoned her shirt all the way up on the very first day of my secondary school life [yes, i did button up my shirt all the way. i was blur. thank goodness charlene saw me before anyone else did. lol]. it's been a fast 3 yrs aye? i still resent the school and all that it represents, but a small part of me is beginning to love this school. this unfamiliar feeling swells up inside me when i talk about my school's [especially sporting, bball] accomplishments. whuts that feeling u ask? can't really put my finger on it...
oh wait. i think i got it.
pride.

it's amazing how i share this love hate relationship with my communist school. actually, its more of the people in the place. i still detest majority of the teachers, though. none have impacted me in any way, maybe all they did was lower my respect for teachers on the whole. they constantly gossip, it's so obvious they don't enjoy their work... but ok i shan't bitch about them today. lol.

so continuing with the people in this school that i love... cecilia, gy, xiu ling, li xian, sherry.. n the tons more i havent mentioned, i can't believe we're all friends.

which leads me to another point. i am not a believer of first impressions, because first impressions are usually wrong. at least for my case that is... becos most people who know me always think that i'm some complete bitch/ ah lian/ shrew/ *throw in any thing u wanna call me* until they really get to know me. n thats just so... not me? ya. so i dont believe in first impressions cos i'm one example that first impressions are totally off.

ok i digress.

n now i've kinda lost whut i wanted to say. lol.

ah i'll ocntinue another time when i feel like it. hahahaha.. oh ya, more on vision n purpose in life on the next post. or maybe i'll finally get down on writing about bitches. but it all depends on my mood. heee..


ok my chem worksheet seems to be staring at me.. so.. i guess i better get to it right? lol..

chem worksheet, u ain't a problem for me. look out cos here i come.

cheerios.

just finished a special surprise for someone. no hints on who it is for, cos i'm sure that person reads my blog. well, if u think its u, then get ready for a surprise in the next 7 days. X))))

am in zero mood to study, n my finals are in.. less than a month?? i'm supposed to be running around like a headless chicken by now, but i'm actually slacking. this is so not good. n to think i've planned so many outings over the next few weeks....... and i'm still typing on my beloved blog so frequently... oh my goodness.

actually i dont feel worried at all. i'm not even worried about not being worried.

which is bad.

but then again, whut's the point in worrying? i should be pro active, just that... i'm not. lol.


ok so today i wanted to talk about charm. was chatting with nigel the worm just now n we were discussing whut makes a person charming. i personally feel that everyone is charming in one way or another, just some more than others. n this charm comes from character. usually when a person is more lively, confident, she'll/he'll be charming. classic example? audrey hepburn. she exudes charm, grace, style, elegance, beauty.. one of my all time fave actresses. lol. so charm does have to do with looks.

not that looks are a bad thing. i don't get people who resolutely refuse to accept the fact that looks do play a very important part when it comes to dating, or anything for that matter. i mean, if u dont become tooo superficial where looks are all u're concerned about, then its ok whut? i think... if someone is not concerned with his/her looks, it only means that they're too ugly to care. sorry. being mean here. but honestly, its true! even the most confident person will want to look good, be it wearing nice clothes, putting on makeup (for girls), doing up the hair (for guys).. a person will naturally wanna look good. i personally love dressing up, going shopping, having fun, playing with my hair etc.etc. but it doesnt mean that i spend hours upon hours in front of the mirror before i go out.

conclusion: there's no point denying that looks are impt. just dont get too caught up with it that u forget character. X))))

ok gtg eat dinner now, more on this another time.

also coming up on my blog, i'm going to talk abt bitches. yes, i do view myself as a crazy lil' bitch sometimes. so stop IMing me about it. there's nothing wrong with that.

cheerios. X))

think this is a nice song. old, but nice. n easy to relate to, lol. yes i can be a crazy little bitch at times, if thats whut u're wondering.


meredith brooks - bitch
i hate the world today.
you're so good to me,
i know but i can't change.
tried to tell you,
but you look at me like maybe
i'm an angel underneath,
innocent and sweet

yesterday i cried.
you must have been relieved
to see the softer side,
i can understand how you'd be so confused,
i don't envy you.
i'm a little bit of everything all rolled into one

i'm a bitch, i'm a lover,
i'm a child, i'm a mother,
i'm a sinner, i'm a saint,
and i do not feel ashamed.
i'm your hell, i'm your dream,
i'm nothing in between.

you know you wouldn't want it any other way.

so take me as I am,
this may mean you'll have to be a stronger man.
rest assured that when I start to make you nervous,
and I'm going to extremes
tomorrow I will change,
and today won't mean a thing

just when you think you've got me figured out,
the season's already changin'
i think it's cool you do what you do
and don't try to save me.

i'm a bitch, i'm a tease,
i'm a goddess on my knees.
when you hurt, when you suffer,
i'm your angel undercover.
i've been numb, i'm revived,
can't say i'm not alive,

you know i wouldn't want it any other way