the hols have started.. for my chums. while they parrtttaayyyy,

i study matrices and electricity.

but yea whutever.

oh man! i have simply, absolutely zero inspiration to write. actually, i do sorta have inspiration, but i m having a brain block. u know, when u have things u wanna say but u can't get the words out in nice sentences and u can't make everything flow so everything is just crammed and jumbled up in your brain? ya. i get that alot. [tho my friend says that brain blocks don't really affect me like i claim they do cos in the end i still write sum crap that impresses other people. which is not really true but yea yea whutever.] so now my brain just feels funny. oh wait... i think i have a term for it...

brain overload.

yups. its like there's a zillion things in my brain that i can't exactly get out.. n now my head's getting heavy. oh boo. ok forget it i shall do whut i usually do which is talk nonsense n type whutever comes to mind. lol.

i'm bored. i'm bored. i'm bored..

oh ya today i woke up at 5. to send my dearest egan off cos he's gonna be in vancouver for the next month and a half. it was kinda funny considering he actually woke me up to tell me not to bother to go, but after his call i couldnt get back to sleep anyway. it was kinda weird actually, cos after i picked up his call, i automatically woke up. n it wasnt the wake-up-but-still-wanna-sleep-sum-more kind. i was actually alert. n then my brain started to think of all the things i had to do... n ya i just got more n more awake, at 5 in the morning. it was kinda strangely peaceful. to be lazing on my bed hearing my own thoughts. so yea daddy drove me to the airport and i guess i looked terrible, cos i just threw on my track top n my pink shorts. i didnt even bother to wear my contacts. egan was so.. amazed? dunno amazed at whut also.. mebbe amazed at the fact that i looked like an ultra geek. ya. hahaha.. he even wanted to take a photo. and all his school mates were looking so goth cos they were at a halloween party, it was like a weird mix of people. like,

me n gene. the sleepy heads who look relatively normal + the goth cum evil looking adams family gang.

it made a pretty funny combination. lol. so yeaps thats whut i did in the morning. it already feels like such a loooonnggg day, cos i've been awake for more than 12 hrs.

wow. its only 5+ and i've been awake for over 12 hours.

no wonder i feel so sleepy. ok shall end here cos this is one nonsensical post.

i'm out-

today is chocolate day.

couldnt find a nice picture of any chocolate.

so i'll post it up tmr.

=D cheers ya'll.

this post is for nigel because..

he is such a sweetie.

so nigel, thank u!!!!!

ok wont say much, but lets just say that i am currently one extremely happy superficial girl.

lol.

=p

sad sad day.

apparently the hella hobo's sold out. so.. dunnoe whut word to use? can only think of sad. i'll prob get over it tmr... but still.. aaarrgghh!!! the amazing multi print hella hobo that i simply adore is sold out.

why is it sold out?!?!!!!

sigh.. n yea u may scoff n say i am superficial... but it was a really awesome bag. i was soo in love with it since i saw it on the LeSportSac webbie. n yes, i am rather superficial. to me, fashion matters. n that bag was utterly heavenly.

ah well. its over..

so... sigh.

forget it.

have alot of things to say, but don't really know how to put it all down into words.

i don't miss you. i don't miss you. i don't miss you. i don't miss you. i don't miss you. i don't miss you. i don't miss you. i don't miss you... maybe if i say it long enough i might just believe it.

it's hard to miss somebody, right? to think about the person 24/7 and really wanna talk to the person, but he or she is too far away and you have no means of contacting him or her. and so all you do is dream, and wish, and wait. wait patiently [sometimes not so] for that person to return. or maybe the person's dead, and you'll never ever get him or her back? that totally sucks.

n there's that weird way of missing someone. where the person is still there, but then, he or she isn't really. you know the feeling? when you miss a person even tho the person is just a phone call away. it's like, you miss the person, and you also miss how things were back then? how both of you were so comfortable, or how both of you were so close.. and then sumhow, you guys just drifted. and that sense of nostalgia, that wanting to get back that level of relationship just hits you so hard. when you realize the person's gone. he or she's moved on with life. and all hope of restoring that closeness is just *poof*

gone.
and try as you may, but you know deep down you can never get back whut u once had. i'm not talking about bgr. i'm talking abt the relationship between friends. and so.. yea. i mean, how do you end a friendship? you cant. a friendship only drifts apart. and it hurts quite a bit.

ah i don't really know how to explain that feeling, but i think you've got a pretty clear idea, at least i hope so.

yea anyway, i really have no inspiration to talk.. so..

yea. i'm out.

pissed post

who do u think u are?

u never say what u mean, n u dont mean whut u say.

all u have is a bunch of empty promises. i'm sick and tired of feeling disappointed with u. when u nv show like u promised to. stop pretending to be my friend and thinking its ok to just forget about ditching me when we're supposed to go out.

u know whut? u should buy ur sorries by the truckload cos u keep handing them out so easily.

how dare u cuss at me? u aint got no manners, all u know how to do is cuss. dont u dare ever do that again. cos listen here u asshole, u aint worthy to cuss at me. when u're in the wrong, just admit it. dont go pushing the blame on others. dont try to act hurt by saying i dont trust u.

cos the truth is, u dont deserve my trust. ur words dont mean a thing. n u dare call urself trustworthy? HAH.

get outta my life u delusional, egoistic JERK.

u deserve death, n that'd be going easy on u.

was just checking out friendster reading the updated profiles of my friends, and i've discovered a serious trend thats happening to most teeny boppers. they all type LikE thiS. their favourite music is whatever is played on 98.7 or 93.3. they have countless 'kor's n 'jie's that are all not blood related. they love to take neoprints...

and this is just naming a few of the 'wonderful' traits they possess. and i simply cannot stand it. i mean, superficiality has reached a new level with these people. yea i sound like i'm dissing them, but not really. i'd like to think of this as voicing my views. to be fair, i do know some really awesome dudes n dudettes who fall into one or 2 of the above categories.

but, if u fall into all of these at the same time.. beware the rude awakening that awaits u when u finally graduate from secondary school and u realize that there's more to life then *gasp* neoprints, n [get ready for this] it's totally not cool to type Lyk thAt. also, grammar is important.

seriously. it is. didnt ur momma ever tell u that how u speak MATTERS?


oh yea i forgot my disclaimer => i aint talking abt no specific person here. n yea i do have a few good frens who actually fall into most of these categories. n they are ultra hot pple who i love to bits. so guys, dont take offense yea. =p


ok so so if u find that u possess a fair number of the qualities listed below, chances are i aint that tight with u. lol.

1. you adore typing LikE tHat. it's an oBsesSioN tO yOu. yOu cAn'T livE witHouT tyPinG thIs waY.
- seriously man, there aint no pardon for sumone who loves typing like that. first, it aint cool or special to type like that becos it's really hard to read. n it's a million times worse if u're a guy n u type LikE thAt. becos... u'll seem gay.

2. ur spelling... well, lets just say it leaves much to be desired. example?
like => lyk
this => dis
oh yes, not to mention that u and practically every word with the letter 'X' or 'Z'. for example..
okieX
okaeX
sianX
sianZ
ahX
argghhZ
n yes the list just goes on. it does not look cool. seriously. there are sum things u change, like ocktober, whut, aiight, byatch.. but there are certain things that shld just be left alone.
oh n its even worse when u type liKe thiS for such words.

3. u have a looonngg list of kors n jies that arent ur blood relations. practically every guy thats older than u becomes ur kor, and every girl thats older than u becomes ur jie.
-pls dont make me explain why this is so irritating. eeeks.

4. the only genre of music u listen to is pop.
for the girls => u buy anything that sells a good looking face. n sumtimes the face aint that good looking and u girls go gaga over him/them. classic example? [f4. 5566. energy. backstreet boys.] for those who actually claim to know whut rock n r&b is, ur world revolves arnd sum 41, hoobastank, busted... n ohmygoodness how could i forget avril lavigne? yes. if u adore avril, [or britney]... eeew.
for the guys => ur definition of rock is busted. look - it aint considered a band if they dont have their own drummer and the hire pple to play any instrument lacking. u have never heard of hendrix n u think a gibson and a fender n just the last names of sum famous actor. "oohhh.. u mean that guy.. director of passion of the Christ.. mel gibson..."

oh wait. u wont even have heard of P.o.t.C. lol

5. u adore taking neoprints. its an obsession.

6.


ok i shall stop the whole dissing pple cum stating my p.o.v thing cos a) i'm tired. b) my inspiration's run dry. lol.

but for those of u who r like me, admit it. u do agree with me. i'm just saying whut few have said. haha

-i'm out-

"wanna let u know u mean alot 2 me ok"


whut to say?

ok lor.

hah.

oh yes! a thank u post.

many thanks to...

charlene - leney!!! well. at least i have a fiziks noob i can rely on. thank u for making me feel so much better about that horrible sub i flunked.. no wonder we're chums. hahaha. n even if i forget all other formulas, i'll rmb this one => f=ma. becos the force is still with me. hee. X)))))

daniel - thanks for letting me be evil. i know i am the supreme evil one.. but surely u deserve sum credit too. =p n also thanks for making me feel less upset abt the whole hoo ha. my dear even tho i dont say it often, u're gonna rock the world! n u're honestly a superb girlfren, n one hellavu byatcher. thank u... PPG unite! man we gotta find our buttercup soon. hahaha

nigel - thanks for making me sound like such an ultra drop dead gorgeous hot babe. i wonder if u've got the correct picture of me in ur head.. but ah well. thanks anyway. duckie u gotta go get urself a gf soon!! rmb law 3 ok.. haha..

pas - thanks for hanging out wit me on sunday. thanks for being willing to sacrifice 16 bucks to watch sumthing u find boring. thanks for listening to me crap, n being there for me. =D i miss u tons!! n yes dear, u'll get ur good looking mr nice guy soon. n if he's smart he wont let u go yea. i love u loaddddssss!!!!!!!

ok yeaps. thats all for now. =p cheerios!

ok today's post will be about anything n everything i want to talk about. they shall be in random order, becos my mind's disorganized today. but who cares? i call it artistic/poetic license. or whutever shit. hahaha.

today's been slack. watched a coupla flicks on my comp and man You Got Served is serious dope!!!! awesome stuff. seriously. the dance moves blew me away. and now i'm a half fan of Omarion. the show makes me really wanna get back into dancing. been a looonngg time since i've strut my stuff.. lol. after the whole fall n the purple ankle in july, my mom's banned me from doing any strenuous exercise with my feet. so yups, i'm definitely getting fat. i mean.. i'm eating the same stuff, but now i cant run it off. boo. n cuz i went skating last friday and i sorta injured my ankle, my mom's determined to take me to see a doc again. [oh speaking of skating, i miss the US. wehre there are these ultra cool skating rinks cos they actually have winter so their skating rinks aren't indoors. which rocks my world cos its just sooo romantic n fun to be skating outdoors. n u out there who's moved to some nice place with four seasons, dont look at me like that. i am indeed the deprived kid who has to pay crazy money to go ice skating. it's not my fault singapore's a hot place. but yea i miss US. n i really enjoy skating..!! superb stuff when u're trying to go fast. heee.. X))] which prob will mean i wont be able to do sports for a coupla months again.. so double booboo. but yea nayway the show's a great dance flick. n like all true superb dance flicks, they have bril dancers but terrible actors. the acting in the show is just.. DOOL material. [in case u ignoramus didnt know, DOOL = days of our lives. "like sand in the hr glass, so are the days of our lives" dont ask me how i know. but after living with two crackpot siblings who actually know such things, it aint my fault. LOL. ok i digress.] but the dancing's ultra ultra hot.

urgh i miss dancing. i miss jamming. i miss singing into a mic. i seriously miss singing into a mic. my good fren said that i shld just quit learning how to play the guitar cos i pretty much suck at it cos i aint willing to sacrifice my fingers for it, n just concentrate on singing. his exact words? "you're not supposed to be holding the guitar, u're supposed to be in front of a mic!" hee. but yea the feeling i get when i just hit the note, n get into the groove on stage with my mates.. awesome stuff!!! X))

speaking of music, i am in love with Stevie Ray Vuaghan. he's a guitarist whose music is amazing. ben n gan were so shocked that i actually listen to his music.. but its good stuff!!! n now i'm a fan, altho i'm a noob at the guitar. so yeaps, peeps check them out. OH. also check out silverchair. dunnoe why, but i actually think they're not bad. hmm.. whut else have i been into? nuthing much, just the same old jazz/rock stuff on my mp3 player... tho pas has been bugging me about singing aretha franklin's i will survive everytime i meet her. have no idea why she likes the song... its a fun song to sing tho. ez n groovy haha.


hmm.. i really have alot of stuff running in my head now. its a never ending flow of things i wanna write down but all have no link to each other cos my brains just like overloading.. u know the feeling u get when u drink too much caffeine and ur mind just works at top speed. ya i got that feelign so have a whole load of stuff i wanna write but dunnoe how to put in order. ah, who cares? i'm not the one reading this, YOU are. so since u actually came to my delightful blog, u must be used to all my babblings. haha.


i didnt go watch ballet under the stars, cos my darling pas was too late. n so we decided just to skip the whole thing cos it's be a waste of money to watch half of it. so instead we just hung out together.. sat down at delifrance n then later coffee bean to just talk n chat. been a looonngg time since i last had a nice chat with her n we just talked abt stuff..how the yr has been for us, be it guys, school, cg, church.. it was good. =) i am sooo gonna ultra miss her when we multiply. n yes, i do know we're not gonna be in the same cg. how do i know? good question. but i doubt lin will put us in the same cg. the yr's just flew by..! i mean.. wow! we're multiplying.. n i wont be pas' cgm anymore. its a good thing.. but then all the nostalgia comes back. ah well, another post for another yr. in this post, i just wanna talk nonsense.







actually, have run out of nonsense to talk abt. lol. inspiration run dry. so ya, mebbe another time. cheerios.

guys,

i'm fine!!!

seriously, i am not suffering from depression or whut not. i am actually in a good mood. in a very good mood. the last two posts were whut i'd call 'rant posts'. i rant, then i get over it. so.. yups. this is just for all those peeps who think i'm suffering sum depression thingie. i'm NOT. i'm in fact in a very good mood. cos i'm going for cg. hehe.

ok cheerios!

i hate having to hold up conversations when i'm in a bad mood. its so tiring. why do people automatically assume that i like to chat n hold conversations ALL the time? i dont. i do it becos i feel obligated to. so please stop expecting me to bring the mood up, crack sum lame joke n make u laugh. cos i'm too tired to do sumthing like that. for once, pls be nice. talk rubbish with me, lemme listen to ur crappings instead of waiting for me to say sumthing.






i wanna call u. n crap with u. n tell u how pissed i am. n tell u everything thats been going on. n cry. n scream. n whine. n after all the byatching, laugh at how silly i am. i wanna hear u on the other line of the phone. cos i miss talking to u.

there. i said it. i miss talking to you.

but you're too busy.

i'm out-

our debriefing started today [along with the sec 4 grad ceremony] and well... lets just say it did not turn out good. i flunked my physics so badly. [yes, i think i did worse than u, leney.] i'm trying to be nonchalant about it, saying that i expected such results.. but honestly, i didnt. the mugging was for nothing. to think i slaved away at that silly TYS to get a f9. yeaps people.. i got a f9. which is kinda horrifying, dont u think? oh well, life's life. i'm seriously thinking of simply not studying for my physics anymore, becos i cant drop physics w/o dropping pure chem, and i know my chem is not bad, so yes. my solution is to simply stop studying physics. thankfully i told my dad to get prepared for the worse already. i think he's more or less prepared.. but i still dont wanna break the news to him, cos it's really bad. n well i didnt just flunk physics, i flunked SS too. can u believe it? me. flunk SS. n i believe i wrote alot of sense in that silly paper. considering i actually studied for it.. n then silly woman gave me a measly 21. honestly, she's so strict she's evil. i think i did better than other pple who actually got 37 or 38 from another class. which leads me to conclude that it's not how u do ur paper, it's who marks it. which is totally unfair. but hey, life's unfair right? just so suay to get one of the strict markers who pract. killed my class. there were a few other classes who died too. but still, i shldnt bother abt whut marks other pple got. it's my results that are impt. n now, my results suck. 2 papers that i've flunked... n i think its gonna get worse.

sigh.

oh well on a brighter note, i did well for my english. got a wonderful 38 [i hope it turns to be a 39] for my eng paper 2. but thats not the best part. the best part is that... i got a beatiful 24/30 for my essay!!! which is amazing. considering i mummified my paper n ms chan was threatening to deduct marks for using soo much liquid paper. but she didnt! and i survived the essay! even with that horrible brainblock, and all that liquid paper, i survived!! was quite happy to hear my paper did well.. altho i still believe it could be better.. but ok... all hope is not lost.. at least i know i can still write a good essay.

but then again. essay marks are so opiniated. like they say, whut could be one man's wine is another man's poison. which is not so comforting after all. hah. maybe i should let other teachers see my paper and ask them whut they think.

i'm beginning to dread debriefs. what i'm dreading even more than that is the telling my parents my grades part. esp. my SS n physics.

sigh squared.

ok i shall just think of missoni and roberto cavalli's 2005 spring RTW collection... and ballet under the stars tmr.

i'm out.

well, i can finally say that....

MY EXAMS ARE OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

lol. [too bad there's no pink coloured fonts. cos pink would really express my mood. hee.] after all the mugging, the late nights of staring at my TYS.. finally over. so i'm gonna shove all my books into my cupboard and keep them there for awhile. =p

it was kinda surreal yesterday, after my lit paper. i actually felt kinda lost when i got home.. it was like 'what?! no more studying to do?? wow....' and truth be told, i actually felt weird w/o having to do anymore TYS questions. lol. so yesterday was spent in a daze, but thanks to Dan my man for being so nice n listening to me rant abt fashion at 1 in the morning. made me feel tons better.
fashion really is my medicine. lol

so well since i'm feeling normal today, i'll be out with my class chums. we're going ice skating n after that i'm meeting josh for dinner. n on saturday n sunday n munday....... well lets just say i have a packed weekend ahead of me. n i love it. heee. X))))

ok gtg wash up.. meeting my frens pretty early.

OH btw, ballet under the stars is starting tonight, all the way till sunday night. i'm going on sunday night with some of my babes, so if some of u out there wanna catch sum good ballet n hang out with ur chum here, gimme a ring yea? X)))

cheerios!

i'd rather be in the ark dealing with the pidgeon droppings than be outside drowning.

Jesus thank u. You've given me purpose, given me direction given me meaning in life. when i'm lost, i have You to turn to. Jesus thank u. u've got me in your arms, and i know u'll never let me go. u're the most amazing daddy i can. you make me fall in love with u everyday. jesus, thank u.

oh yay! i suddenly remembered whut i wanted to write. ok the previous post was kinda rubbish. really had zero inspiration.. cos i was feeling a bit moody cos i knew i had sumthing i wanted to say but i couldnt rmb whut so i just didnt post it. a bit like dory, dont u think? haha. but now i rmb! n all my inspiration is coming back. so...

yay. X)))))

ya. so my jie was telling me abt how sumone stole her wallet and did the freakiest thing! i mean.. that nutcase stole her wallet and emptied out all her impt cards like her IC, her debit card etc. into the bushes outside raffles mrt station, and took all her photos! i mean.. nutcase! its like.. who would steal a wallet to only take the photos inside? u'd think that he'd do sumthing else, but no.. he didnt. which is really creepy considering my sis rmb the guy was at bedok mrt station, which means he must live near bedok, which means that he could be some crazy creepy stalker in love with my sister, which in case you're wondering, is not good. cos i look like a photocopy of my sister, and so the creepy crazy stalker dude could be stalking me n my sis! i mean, he knows our address cos of my sister's IC.. so.. yes. wayy creepy. plus, my sis has been meeting some really weird pple lately. well not exactly meeting them, cos she doesnt even know them, but getting weird pple stare at her. [which is, in case you're wondering again, is not good. yes. not good.] and follow her halfway home until her bf gives them the super fierce/scary/angry/u-wanna-piece-of-me look. which scare them away, sort of. so ya when my mom heard abt the whole stalker business, she was pretty freaked. [it was a 7 on the freaked scale of 1 to ten.] and she made me promise her i not reach home after 7 and on fridays when i'm coming back to church, it'll be safer for me to have at least one really tall guy to send me home. if not, two or three or four. she thinks i need an entourage. haha.
so guys of the supper ministry, take note => pls learn some dangerous karate thingy or who knows whut ancient skill to protect me from crazy creepy stalker dudes. lol.
my sister just told me, and i quote, " if u see some crazy stalker dude, just run really fast."
which is like... --___--"" dots! hahahaha. but oh well, coming from my sister, i'll try to take her advice. hehe.

which led me to wonder why on earth people, esp guys, like to stalk others. i mean, is it fun? i think its really sick. its just wrong. but then again, a couple of guys i know actually stalk others. which is just.. wrong. n weird. i mean, are girls supposed to take it as compliments when they get stalked? i dont think so.


so that's that about the crazy stalker dudes.

n now i have really good news to tell u!!!!

get ready for it....

are u ready? u should be... cos.....

my kor is bringing back his doggy back from aussie to let me n my sis keep him permanently!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wooooohoooo!!!! which is ultra ultra good news, cos my mom actually agreed to it. n my dad also said yes.. so... YAYY!!!!! am ultra ultra super duper happy that she actually agreed, and snowie will be coming down in november! i hope they wont quarantine him for too long tho, so we can hurry get him in the house. hee. X))))))) snowie's a west highland terrier who's abt 2 mnths. makes him ultra ultra adorable. he looks like a bit ball of cotton wool, just less fluffy, but still looks so soft n cute. aaaaahhh!!! i cant wait!!!!! i can imagine a doggie running arnd the house.. how cool is that! altho i do hope he doesnt try to eat vanilla, or the fishies in the water feature. cos no matter how cute he is, if he does eat my darling vanilla, i'll strangle him. so i do pray that he'll get along with vanilla, n the fishies of course. =D n ooooo! he'll be able to chase away all the cats that like to roam arnd my hs!!! wooohooo!!! n i'll bring him for walks, and he'll sleep in my room, and i'll take care of him n let him go for grooming services... wheeee!!! i'm so excited. n i cant wait!!!! hahahahaha...

ok still have tons of things to say, but no time lah. mommy is screaming for me to get off so she can use it to print sumthing.

so yeaps. i'll talk abt whut i wanted to talk about another time, if i rmb. lol.

cheeerios!!!

p.s great news! i dont need to go to schl tmr!! woohoo!! hhehehehe

zero inspiration to write. have alot of things to say....

not yet. but soon.

cos my finals officially end on thursday. which is a good thing. after the days n weeks of studying, i can finally say that its gonna be over.

finally.

ok i'm off to watch a ton of movies and one whole season of Whose Line Is It Anyway. cheerios

ok today was my second outing with my pumps. they've seem to grown some affection for me - i came home without any blisters today. hee. well i have 5 papers down, 5 more to go. so thankful that my e.geog paper n my physics paper is over... woohoo!! ya. i mean.. i barely survived the physics paper. i think it basically killed me and i'm in screwed ville. oh well. lets just wait n see how my results are like. but was kind apissed at first, cos i realized that memorizing ohysics formulas are no use cos if u dont know how to apply them, u're screwed anyway. n those people who say u can just sub in all the figures u get into the question... thats bull. so yea.. was quite pissed that i studied so hard on thursday night.. forgoing my beloved ms divine's concert.. [which btw i heard was AMAZING n totally YUMMY. yes. ms divine didnt fail to deliver. she was as brilliant as everyone thought she could be. i was so greeen... n speaking of turning greeeenn, there's this new jazz singer who's called Renee Olstead and she is amazing stuff. she's 14, n she sounds like billie holiday. so check her out cos she's hott stuff. ok i digress] but well today's lit paper comforted me. cos yea.. i managed to scribble my last line just in time when ms chan said 'pens down'. altho my hand was so numb after that.. haha. ok gtg study.. havent touched my books [not really anyway] today and i'm so screwed cos i havent even started on chinese. i'm out. cheerios


A Student's Psalm For Exams

The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not flunk;
He keepeth me from lying down when I should be studying.
He leadeth me beside the water cooler for a study break;
He restores my faith in study guides.
He leads me to better study habits for my grades' sake,
Yea, tho' I walk thru the valley of borderline grades,
I will not have a nervous breakdown; for Thou art with me;
My prayers and my friends, they comfort me.
Thou givest me the answers in moments of blankness;
Thou anointest my head with understanding,
My test paper runneth over with questions I recognize.
Surely passing grades and flying colors
Shall follow me all the days of examinations,
And I shall not have to dwell in this school forever !
Amen !

i start my finals tomorrow... one loonng week of really hard studying.

so whut am i doing here at midnight? haha.

well i'm not sure really, just to releive stress i guess. my moom has been really warped the past few days. i'm ms. nice one minute and ms by-atch the next.

so guys if i snap at u, i'm sorry. i'll try to keep ms monster safely away from humans.

ok whutever i am talking nonsense. and my eyelids are getting heavy so i'm off to bed now.

just that... my bedroom smells weird. n clue why. but its weird. hard to sleep with weird smell in ur room. lol.

so i shall type whutever comes to mind. oh yes, milan fashion week is here. i love roberto cavalli. cool stuff! plus christian dior, john galliano is still the drama queen. if u're wondering why i have time to look at all those pics.. well... heh heh.. those are the things that keep me sane, apart from my bible n praying...

n also friends like jasmine. cos she's an amazing fren. for u pple out there who have no idea who jasmine is, well, too bad for u. hahahaha. cos u're missing out on someone really fab. and i am so thankful for her in my life.. lemme try to explain how impt. she is..

hmmm.. ok do u guys have a mental list of the people u can call at the weirdest times of the night n be pretty confident that they will listen n encourage u n just make u feel better? the list that seperates the friends from the friends... u know? its like there are ur friends, n then there are those who see the totally other side of u. the side that whines, gets upset, frustrated.. yada yada yada - basically the side that very few people get to see.

well for me, jasmine is on the friends list. cos she is an awesome friend. she's the kind of person u says the right thing to make u feel better... so.. yeaps. kudos to my jasmine. [do i sound possesive? hem hem..]


thanx babe... for everything. u're brilliant. so happy to have u in my life. love ya loads! X))))))

okie i'm out.

physics, u dont scare me. watch out cos i'm gonna ace u.

she considers herself unworthy.

she considers herself useless.

she considers herself stupid.

she considers herself a failure.

her self assurance is just a facade to what really lies beneath.

she's not confident.

she's quite lousy, actually.


but so what? this girl realizes she's not alone. cos she's got the coolest Daddy in the world who loves her unconditionally... despite all her faults and all her screw ups.

a daddy who uses imperfect people to do great things.

and that girl happens to be at the top of the imperfect list.

so the girl's changed.

she knows she's worthy.. worthy of love.. cos her daddy said so. "i have loved you with an everlasting love..."

she might not be as self-assured as she looks, but she's definitely getting there. "... we have confidence toward God..."

she's victorious, cos her daddy helped her win. "I have made u the head and not the tail, you shall be above only.. blessed in your coming in, blessed in your going forth..."

and so what if she's imperfect and so afraid? her daddy's made her perfect in His love. "there is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear..."


Daddy thank you for loving me. thank you for saving me. thank you for embracing me in your arms. thank you for comforting me. you are always there when i need you.. you are always there when i'm down.. thank you for your unconditional love. i'm not afraid anymore. i don't fear the world. cos i have you. you are what's most important.

Jesus, thank you.

NY fashion week...
London fashion week

it's time for....

MILAN FASHION WEEK!!! where gucci flaunts it, fendi shows off, n most importantly [to me anyway], D&G strut theit stuff!!!

and this season's collection is amazing.

brilliant.

go check it out peeps. so retro. but still. amazing.

ok. gotta run. have two papers tmr so i need my sleep. =) plus, i'm finally going back to help out in children's church.. tmr is a big day... woohoo!!!

superb stuff.

ok, i'm out.

cheerios!

OH. btw. before i forget.

the gilmore girl's soundtrack is amazing stuff too! loads of peeps i havent heard of, like PJ Harvey, Black Box Recorded, Sam philips...

ok. they r amazing. so catch it ya!!!