bugga boo!

ok i know my dear blodgers that i havent been consistently blogging, but honestly i've been so busy i havent been able to find the time to write down all i want. this week has been emotionally straining, all the crying has made my eyes sore. ok i can see all ur concerned faces out there going 'oh no! wad happen? r u ok? don't cry...!' but well my dahlings, i'm fine. i think. yea i am. i believe i am. X)

jessica left on wednesday night to go back to aus.. [in case u ignoramuses dont know who my darling honey jessica the sweetie pie is - lemme tell u about the fabulous babe. she is one of the bestesty bestest pple i know in the universe. met this lady when i was an innocent pri 4 kid and she totally corrupted me!!!! taught me all i'll ever need to know about WWF to last me a life time. we were cassmates until pri 6 and i loved every moment with her n our gang. jess, jas, amanda n ai ping. awesome ladies, i tell u.] ai ping [oooo i have to talk abt ai ping. wahlao woman u r ultra pretty leh!!! bth. so pretty outside but still so chor lor outside. if u dont tlak n dont do any silly things, i think pple will think u r very sweet. but too bad u always talk n do silly things hahaha] n i met her at the airport for dinner at mac. but there was this guy from our pri schl who kept interrupting us as we talked. so we moved to the viewing gallery and we sat on the floor and talked.. man it felt really good to be able to just.. talk. and just be myself in front of my chums. i've realized that pri schl mates are the best mates u'll ever find in ur entire life. cos my pri schl chums are just.. amazing. they r pple i feel i can truly be myself. cos they've seen the best n worst, the wackiest, the byatchiest side of me.. they've seen everything.. and i can feel so relaxed with them, get whut i mean? yea.. ok i digress. so we hung out there, and after that jasmine came to meet us and we took a whole load of crazy photos! the security guards who were supposed to check the plane tickets at the departure gates were so amused with us lol. cos we even asked them if we could take photos with them [their answer was no, but they said we could if we went to work with them. i think they thought we were cute hahahaha. =p]. it was so much fun!!!!! but underneath the fun, i guess all of us were pretty sad that jess had to go. ping n i left earlier, n we were screaming our goodbyes to jess even when we were on the mrt haha. am pretty sad that she has to leave. even tho i know she's coming back in dec for her hols again, still.. the fact that she won't be here.... sigh. makes me wanna cry again.

so that was wednesday.. thursday was a norm day.. schl was boring.. sumthing happened in the evening but u aint gonna get any details from me haha. ;p

friday. ok friday was what i define as extremely emotionally draining. sent my other darling amanda chang jia hui to the airport as she had to leave for aus as well. can't really explian how impt. she is to me. lemme put it this way - she's one of the very few pple i'd willingly wake up at 6 am for. thats how much i love her. spent the last few minutes with her as well. jas, mel n even daniel bey turned up. ai ping the lazy pig was still sound asleep in bed. did the norm, waved like crazy when she went in the departure gates, n i very nearly cried. but everybody was there, so i didnt.

and that wasn't the end of my extremely emo. week. sum other news cropped up.. made me feel even worse. but ok lah praise God svc was good. X) pst talked about singing. 'sing, oh you barren!' n yea i felt so much better n recharged. made me feel better and even tho i'm still not entirely ok, i'm sure i will be. the bus ride home with sin ma was... hahaha.. well lets just say i did sumthing totally outta the norm. but he was a sweetie so praise God for that.

ok i know this is one really weird post but i just wanted to record it down cos i needed to get it off my chest. n anyway this post is for my two darlings whom i miss so so so so much.

n yes my fashion post will come soon haha.

jess n manda.. i love you girls!!!!! *muakkks*

oh! hahaha. the best moment of the week => seeing ai ping say "oei jessica tan! if u make me angry one more time i'm going to kiss you ar!" n seeing jessica's face turn green when she heard it. rofl.

ok cheerios peeps!

yay i can finally d/l stuff again! have been depressed lately cos suprnova closed down. but ok i've now found another site where i can d/l all the wonderful things i want. so... YAY!

anyway today was this very first time i reached schl before 7 - 6.45 in fact. wilbur's jaw dropped so low it reached the floor when he saw me walk thru the classroom door. lol. n if actually felt pretty good. to have some quiet in the morning b4 the madness of lessons n everything else. reminded me of the camp last yr during november when the bunch of us didn't sleep that night. but i kept falling asleep in ms soh's lesson.. haha dont think i'll reach so early again. lol.

oh man i feel like a very self centred person. how?? there are a mil things that's happening in our world n yet my main concern is.. moi. ok. i shall aim to achieve selfactualization by this yr. hahaha.

ok have a ton of work i hvent done -.- am gonna go start on it now. more on the Golden Globes fashion critique on my nex post! cant wait for sarah's age old tradition of judging celebrities fashion on the red carpet. *claps hands excitedly* oooo i cant wait haha.

ok till next time.. cheerios!

today was superb. made up for a not so bril week. [tuesday: mrs kee my new chem teacher confiscated my phone. pengs. thursday: was late for school. i have set the record for the most number of late days in just 2 weeks of school. i've been late 5 times. so mr soon. gave me detention, and now i ahve to report to him at 7 a.m every morning. pengs squared. friday: had an eye infection so didn't go to school. some weird green colour discharge was coming outta my eye. pek chek... can u see how unbrilliant my week has been? but ok i digress.] so am now pretty contented, even tho i'm exhausted. =D

went to sentosa today with amanda, jessica, melissa, alvin n joel. it was ab fab, to say the least. X)) it even made the sunburn worth it. [altho now my face is terrible hot n my arms too n man i'm gonna look like rudolph cos my nose is just so red] we had fun in the water, n we played vball with a group of guys. wah it was so stressful cos all of them are such good playets, and i'm the only noob on the entire court, and i was on the guy's team, which means i was playing with total strangers. so naturally i felt extremely stressed. i think it was written all over my face, cos one of the guys in the team [i still rmb his name - gary. and he's from chicago haha.] was such a sweetie! i mean even tho we were playing with adults and all.. wah he was really truly nice. kept telling me to relax, n that it was gonna be ok. n well the best piece of advice anyone's ever given me regarding volleyball was "the ball isnt going to hurt you." which i suddenly think is so true! i mean all along i've been more or less terrified of a flying volleyball [weird huh i'm scared of vball n soccer ball but not bball even tho bball heavier n bigger. haha] but today i guess i can say i've taken positive steps to overcoming my fear. yay. XD so he was really nice, n today i actually managed to serve the ball across well!!! aaaahhh!!! it's like a major, MAJOR accomplishment for me haha. so happy. hee. =) n so yes my team managed to win the 2nd 'match' we played. hahaha there was a great sense of satisfaction n achievement after the game. made me not mind being burnt n hot. XD

oh yes i have to say - alvin is one heck of a volleyball player. i mean seriously i have never thought that alvin lam would be such an awesome player. i mean.. WOW. who ever thought that he could possess such skills? certainly not me. but he does. n man he is fab. n ok i know i sound like i'm gushing but seriously he is a good player. n i rarely say pple are bril at sports unless they are. n he is. hahaha. ok i digress.

so yups. today was awesome, fantabulous, brilliant, amazing, stupendous, _______ [fill in with whutever wonderful word u can think of]! i must make it a pt. to go back to sentosa more often. yups. XD esp. with all my chums.

okok. am extremely tired, i am too lazy to write any further. so i'll cont. tmr. haha.

cheerios!

** sarah's very own Mastercard advertisment **

Physics textbooks: $15

Physics TYS: $10

Physics Tuition: $300

Counselling after realizing I can never do well in Physics: $200

Seeing the look of ScaryGary's face when I told him i was dropping his subject in the middle of the test he was giving the class: priceless

"There are some things money can't buy. For everything else, there's Mastercard."

"dream as if you'll live forever, live as if you'll die today."
- James Dean

have become a huge huge fan of james dean. he is the ultimate bad boy all girls fall for. am dying to watch Rebel Without A Cause. so if anyone has the dvd/vcd... lend it to me please!!!!!

ok. that's all i wanted to say. that i am a fan of James Dean.

and i've said it.

cheerios!

this post is for some of my classmates [the toilet stealer, the blog stalker, the one who keeps lifting my skirt and laughing manically, the funky fish, the one who's ticklish everywhere... u know who u are. rofl]. but this post is specially for the sweetest most studious nut in 4 grace... the nicest sweetest most beloved esther lim xiu ling. X)) dar, not matter wad some people say of u, just ignore them ya? i know it's hard to ignore such people, cos they're like incessant pests constantly bugging u.... but still, u're a million times better than them so u defintely can do it. =D miss u tons in schl.. so many days never see u liao... must come back ok!!! we all love u lots lots. X)

well today was the sixth day of school, and it's the first time all these days i don't have any homework assignments! so thankful that i dno't have any assignments, cos mondays are such long days... esp. today cos i had detention. just becos i forgot my CME book. ultra doink doink. scary gary [or sweaty gary as chareleney calls him lol] was boring as usual... but he actually confiscated my jeffrey archer book! pengs. n then after lesson i went to get it back from him and he made me promise to never read non physics material in his lesson ever again. so i did, and he looked me straight in the eye and said, "i trust u ah. u cannot break that trust." ohmygoodness it was so CREEPY! hahahaha... all my hairs were standing. eeeeks!

anyway tmr is mr soon's first tutorial with us! woohoo! X)) cant believe i'm excited to see the DM, but i am!!!! its so exciting. =D

okok have to go now maybe post more later. but in the mean time i'm gonna catch up on my naruto series with my bro. yippee! X))

ooo yes b4 i forget. shoutouts!

nigel hee: duckie!!! wormie!!!! so sorry i havent written u ur email. but very bz lah. i think i'll write it tonight. ok just want to tell u that u ahve been on my mind n i miss u tons!! MUST COME BACK DURING UR SUMMER HOLS OK!!!!!

nigel chew: haha dont think u read my blog but nvm. it's been great getting to know u more. X)) when r we going to go out??

alvin lam: yay!!! u're finally 16!!! can watch nc-16 shows legally!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHUAI GE!!!!! X)) ok we shall go either cafe cartel or marche for ur birthday treat ya? but wait until have money first okie. hahaha..

mr ling: haha nuthing much just to let u know i'm thinking of u.

wz: ditto for u. X))

jas: ooo when r we going kickboxing??

boon hui n hwee min: hahaha the blog stalker n the toilet stealer!!! wahahah... eh hwee min.. can u stop stealing my toilet cubicle??? it's WRONG! and boon for goodness sake make urself known in my blog lah. there's a tag board to ur right.. pls use it both of u. X)) ooo n f.y.i, i look forward to many more prata eating sessions with u.

n of course last but not least my dar xiu ling: wei babe!!!! pretty girl!! chio bu!!! even tho we don't talk as much, i still love u loads ya. there are many pple who care for u, never forget that! u rock my socks off!!! *muaakkss*

haha ok i'm done!

cheerios peeps!X))))

just watched a video clip on the aftermath of the tsunami in bandah aceh. am filled with... sorrow? yes. to grieve for the dead. the lost and the hurting. it's one of the worst things that has happened in recent decades, and over 150 000 have lost their lives. cannot imagine the pain and the trauma those people are facing as they are left with nothing and no one. to be all alone in the world with everything gone... it must be like a bad dream to them. the mass and utter destruction in the city is truly.. i am speachless. i can't find the correct words to say. there are no correct words to say.

it makes everything that's been happening in my life so insignificant. it's a reality shock. to see life so fragile. makes me realize that i ahve to do more with my life. life is more than studying. it's about making a difference.

all i saw were clips on the tv. cannot imagine how much more horrifying it would be in real life. to stand them and see the place u grew up in.. destroyed. gone. how are the people going to live? whut are they going to do? is it possible to rebuild ur life again after such an incident? i think memories of whut happened will stay with them forever. have tried to put myself in their position.. to see the villagers lost n confused. in pain. sick and dying. where they are clinging on to their religion, still believing that their god will not let them down. i truly admire their faith.

150 000. that's alot of people isn't it. all of them different. all of them had people who loved and cared for them. all were precious to God... and all gone. i wonder how many have joined the devil. he must be so happy right now.. with so many people in hell. damn the devil..

please pray for those people. please pray for the lost and hurting. as they try to pick up the pieces of their life, let us pray that God will help them, that He will be their source of comfort. and even as we live in singapore, where we are not affected by the tsunami, let's remember that it could have happened to us. and let us remember those who have perished. beyond that, let us extend a hand to those who need it the most. you might not be able to do anything physically. you might not be able to go to those places to do volunteer work. but please do as much as you can. donate ur money, your clothes, whutever things that will be useful to the people there, pelase donate. let us unite as one - not just as singaporeans, not as asians, but humans - and show the people we care.

God bless the tsunami victims.

MY COMP IS FINALLY WORKING!!!!!

the silly computer in my bro's room died on monday [boohoo] and it still hasnt revived yet [double boohoo]. but thankfully my genius bro did sumthing miraculous so that my room comp can access the internet. YAY!!!

school has been going pretty well. the first day wasn't as bad as i thought it'd be. in fact, it was pretty fab. X) there wasn't this HUGE jump from sec 3 to sec 4... in fact i still feel like a sec 3 student.. with all the running arnd and screaming we do in class, we even act like sec 3s. the whole sec 4 thing is hard for me to adjust to. give me time. haha. have a few new teachers, and ms chan is my form teacher [who happens to read my blog also so maybe i shld refrain from saying some things... oh but then again who cares? this is after all my space to rant. so HI ms chan!] cos ms sharm. is overloaded with classes. she apparently has 48 periods weekly or sumthing. i think thats nuts... how she can tahan so many classes is.. scary. but ok thats her n i'm ok with her being my teacher. X)) the new additions in the 4 grace family [i still keep writing 3 grace on all my WS and stuff.. bth!] are gary chua, mr dava and mr soon. wah have to tell u i adore mr soon's lessons!!!! he is the ultimate most funny teacher who's taught me!!! hahahahaha... was rather apprehensive about his lessons at first, cos after all he's the DM [discipline master, for u buffoons out there wondering whut dm is] and yes he already reprimanded me for my hair on monday. but today during his lesson.. all i can say is time passed really fast! which is a very good thing. considering some teachers make time crawl. and b4 i knew it his lesson was over n i was so sad cos we had to leave the lecture theatre. i am so looking forward to next week's class tutorial thing where we have 2 straight hrs of mr soon! woohoo! hahahaha. i can't believe i'm cheering cos the DM is my SS teacher. but i am. he is superb. =D well mr dava is.. strict. it's the first time i didnt say a word during lit lesson ok. woah. he is... so fierce. but ok lah i'm pretty sure he'll knock us into shape and then i'll be able to get my nice disinction. =) hmmm.. for gary chua, yes char he does sweat alot... maybe for teacher's day we'll buy him deodarant! thats a thought. he has over productive sweat glands or sumthing.. it is such a turn off to have to see those stains as he's teaching. eeew eeew. but well on a happier note, i ahve learnt more from him in today's lesson then i have in any of ms goh's lesson. so maybe i do have abit of hope and i wont have to drop physics. maybe. we'll see how soon. n hmm.. whut else abotu schl? oh yes! my schedule! it's pretty fab, dont have any complaints, cos from tues - fri i end sch at 1.10!! wooppeee!!! the only time i rmb ending at anytime remotely close to 1 was in sec 1. so yes i' definitely happy abt the change in schl let off times. it even makes mondays more bearable [we end at 4.10 on mondays]. X)) ooo speaking of mondays the new principal has come n well.. judging from the looooonnnggggg speach he made on monday during assembly, all i can say is... i miss mr yue. yes i know u never would ahve thought that such a phrase would come out of my mouth, but it has. and it speaks VOLUMES of the new p., mr lo. he talks really slowly [it reminds me of dory's whale talk], and his english is so..... eeeeks! but ok i'll give him the benefit of the doubt and see how he does in a coupla months. until then, thats enough abt the new p.

so yeaps schol has been pretty fab, have finally been able to see my frens [li xian, xiu ling, yu ting, sherry and never forgetting my funky fish wilbur =D] and even some teachers [zhen lao shi!!!] so yes i conclude that this yr will be more or less fab. even tho we've had so many different vsns of The Talk, where they tell us we have very little time left and we have to work very hard so that we can accomplish our goals n whutnot... ok lah after so many talks i am slowly becoming immune to it. but that doesnt mean there will be any slacking, i do intend to work very hard this yr. i do hv to do superbly for my Os, dont i? =) so if i ahve to do well, it means i have to get strated on the tons of hw i havent done which i am determined to get a head start on. =D

ok i can practically feel all my hw staring at me. so i better get to it now. boo. ah well, the life of a sec 4 student, not that i'm complaining. homework homework here i come!

cheerios pple X))

oh p.s i suddenly like the phrace "fat lumbering buffoon". rofl. esp. the word buffoon. hahahahaha

ohmygoodness tomorrow is monday. which means school is starting tomorrow.

school is starting tomorrow.

somehow i'm not looking forward to it. well yes i do miss my friends, but i want more holidays! 6 weeks isn't enough!!! ugh u have no idea how much i dread going back to that place. waking up at 6 a.m.. hvaing tons of work to do.. feeling stressed... going thru my O's.. ohmygoodness i'm gonna do my Os this year. i'm in sec 4. WOW. i never thought that i'd ever get to sec 4 alive... n yet hear i am. still typing to u about how freaked out i am. [guess whut i heard: scary gary is going to be my fiziks teacher!!! ohmygoodness charlene even tho we're best chums it doesnt mean i have to have the same teacher as u right????? doinkdoinkdoink.] i'm still in my holiday mood, i'm not ready to go back yet! but then again, will i ever be ready? don't think so. this new year is going to be... hard. that's the best word i can think of to describe the next 363 days. and i'm dreading it. d-r-e-a-d-i-n-g it. whut's it gonna be like? finally being the oldest in the school again, not that it matters anymore. to think that i'll be graduating from chung cheng high by the end of the year. n then there comes the big question: whut am i gonna do with my life??? i have zero clue as to whut i wanna do after my Os. not a single one. go to JC? Poly? whut? maybe i shouldnt even be thinking about this... maybe i shld just think of how hard i should study for my Os. but somehow i'm dreading it. all the mugging. oh man! so many questions going on in my head.. ah well, i'll take it as it comes.

man i miss 2004 already. it was a fab year for me. well, i did go thru my fair share of shit, n yea i was confused and upset with life n stuff but i came out victorious and more convicted about my beliefs. but still, it was an awesome year. have so many things to be thankful for.. ok i shall make out a list of people and events i am truly thankful for and will rmb for life. =)

Emerge 2004 - Word Power!!!
wow i still can't believe i memorized 60 verses, punctuation and all. never in my life have i thought i was capable of such a feet. plus all the bible reading, all the memorizing of church history. WOW. am so thankful to God, for letting jie, kel and i join the competition. it was such a great time for me, getting to spend time with my sister, getting to know other people from the competition.the only word i can use to describe the whole experience is fun. it was just so amazing... and i didn't find it bothersome when i had to memorize silly facts about Nero and all the evil things he did.. or David Livingstone and Martin Luther.. or memorize those complicated names in the bible.. i just found it fun. and how we did well for the preliminaries.. for the semis.. wow. it was just amazing. =) Emerge conference was a blast. it was such a faith booster.. i'm sure everyone felt so pumped up after the conference. =) and after emerge, i got to share testimony on stage!!! i mean, that was just amazing. looking at the crowd and just talking, it felt good. =D

Daddyyy!!!!!!
i am so very grateful that my daddy is still alive n well. he is the bestest human daddy in the world, n no other daddy can compete. i thank my big Daddy for giving me my own daddy who loves me so much n takes care of the family so well. who i am, my personality... where on earth did u guys think it came from?? my daddy of course! he is the one with the most fabulous fashion sense, a great sense of humour, great charisma and style.. he is such a charmer, and a goodlooking one, might i add. he is the one who told me i was always good enough n i could do anything if i worked hard for it, n becos of him, i can happily say i'm a very self assured teenager. =D i wouldnt know whut to do w/o him, and i am so thankful that he's still here with me. despite all the things that happened, he still came out ok. daddy even tho u dont read my blog [altho sumtimes i think u just might haha], here's a huge I LOVE YOU!!!!! you're the bestest daddy in the world. *runs and gives him a big fat hug* X))

E279!!!!
i love my cell group. i love my leader. i love the awesome church God placed me in. i love all the people that make up E279. from the original few [sharon, aaron, ter, ber... n who could forget darling lin??] to whut it is now, i am so thankful to God for placing u pple in my life. i hv laughed, cried, gone wild, gotten moody with u pple n i really enjoy ur company. jas, ber, lee ling, pas, n my dearest dearest LIN - i love u girls so much u wouldnt even begin to understand how much i love u babes. we've grown together in the cg, and even tho we're not all in the same cg anymore, i know that we'll always be chums for life. =D

Christmas Day '04.
it was one of the best nights of my life, cos it really made me clear up doubts in my head. from 3 a.m - 5 a.m it was the first time i had an actual conversation with my bro n sis. if the rest of my christmas sucked, i would still rate it one of the best days of the year cos i was able to talk with them n i think my relationship with both of them is steadily improving. kor, you have the funniest sense of humour and you always brighten up a place. jiejie, you're sheer genius. i dunnoe how i'll ever compare to u, cos u're almost perfect. u're funny when needed, ever so brilliant, and i look up to u sooo much. the one person i ever want to really be like is you. i love you loads. =)

The Guys. =p
-Raymond!!! Mr. Ling!!!!! u are my long lost bro!!!!!!! u never ever fail to make me smile. i love all my talks and conversations with u - i dunnoe how u did it, but u dont even have to say anything funny and u can crack me up. hahahahahahaha. in fact, just thinking abt all ou conversations together cracks me up already. lol. u r one amazing person n my dear u are gonna rock the world for Jesus!!! no matter whut the nutcases in ur camp say, everything's gonna be ok. u rock my socks off. X)))
-SinMa!!!!!! aaaaahhh!!! i never thought i'd find a friend who's double my age, literally. u are one of the sweetest guys i know. to think u actually brought me to siglap to hunt for bacon n eggs just becos i wanted to. hahahahaha. n how u gave my my jigsaw puzzle..!!! hahahaha. u remind me of me. u have a cool sense of style [wow i'm complimenting u] and u're an aesome person to be with. thank u for all the outings - i'll never forget my fondue and the time i was drenched before meeting u. rofl.
-Daniel n Wei Zhong!!! the orig-nal members of the supper ministry. u guys are so special. thank u for being in my life. X) n a big thanks to WZ for bringing to KBox. =D
-Nigel!! Duckie!!! Wormie!!! did u think i was going to forget u? of course i wouldnt!!!!! u are also one of the sweetest pple i know. i miss all the talks we have. n i i'm still dreaming of my hella hobo so u better come back during ur summer hols ok!!! i am so excited to meet u. =D


and well there are tons more that happened, but this is whut is coming to mind right now. more another day maybe? haha. ok i have to go n prepare for schl, have to put those silly buttons on my uniform....... sigh. for the record: sarah is so looking forward to school tomorrow. NOT.

ok chung cheng here i come. watch out cos sarah ling is back. X)

wow ok have many things to blog about. all of them varying in their seriousness [from my stolen handphone to jess' bloody nose to new year's eve celebration to the tsunamis n earthquake to looking back on the year] but all pretty important to me. but ok i'll start with a recap of the past few days which have been pretty... well i dunnoe what word to use for my past few days. but it's been all good... sort of. hahaha.

on wednesday i met you yi for lunch [ooo i finally got rid of my prata craving yum yum yum] and we did have a good long chat. made me relaize how much i miss tlaking to him n hanging out with him. he is apparently deathly afraid of my snowie, or as he puts it, he has an intense disliking for all dogs. have no idea y, since snowie is such a darling. cannot comprehend how people can dislike dogs, esp. snowie. oh well to each his own i guess. still i think snowie's adorable. =D so after lunch, i rushed off to meet alvin for coffee but i was 70 min late n all i can say is he is realllyyy patient. he didnt even strangle me. so yups we went to starbucks to drink nice coffee and we had a really nice chat. he hasn't changed much over the yrs, he's still as sweet as ever. apparently he's an awesome volleyballer.. so i must go watch him play sometime this yr. was good meeting up with him after so many yrs.. n wah he's become so tall.. bth! i'm literally looking up to him. so yeaps it was an awesome time with him, and he actually bought me a christmas prezzie!! he is such a sweetie. X)) ok must definitely meet up for his birthday, n i gotta get him sumthing liao..... so yups that was coffee with alvin, n after that i met jessica n she was wearing a SKIRT!!!!!! rofl. wah i've never seen her in a skirt before... n she was in a skirt!!!!!!!!! i screamed when i saw her, and gave her the biggest bear hug ever. =D she still feels as warm as i can remember. X) so we headed over to her hs, and met ai ping along the way on that double decker bus 69, where my handphone got stolen. [ok talk abt ai ping first. WAH! she looks so chio now man!!!!!! n so girly!!!!!!! hahahahahahahaha... if she doesnt open her mouth right, u'd think that she was such a sweet cute looking girl. but thats only when she keeps her mouth shut. lol. i was kinda surprised to see her look so.. feminine. in a sense. cos she has long hair, and fringe n everything! but once she opened her mouth.... hahahahahaha. i knew everything was the same. she hadnt changed a single bit. still as loud and as crazy as ever. rofl.] some jackass stole my phone!!!! i dunnoe how he did it, cos my phone was in the back pocket of my jeans, but he did, and when i called my phone it wad turned off. i was sooo upset. the three of us were lifting up all the seats triyng to look for my phone but we couldnt find it.... hai. stupid man. [i hope he gets warts and all his hair will fall out and all his teeth will drop out and he will be antagonized by acne for the rest of his life and he'll not be able to sleep at night cos he'll be too guilt stricken. HAH.] so i've lost ALL my contacts and all the impt dates in my phone [like pple's birthdays, impt events.. EVERYTHING. oh yes which reminds me, i think i shld really get a nice organizer. so that i won't have to rely on any phone. and i'll be able to record everything impt down.. oooo! i still have my taka voucher! wahahha.. shopping shopping here i come. wheee. X)] i've felt so lost the past coupla days w/o my phone. it's like losing an arm, i feel so handicapped. i can't do my calling, i can't sms, i dont have anybody's number... wah it's a terrible thing. but then again, it's not that terrible. it felt kinda relaxing w/o a phone. no need to call anyone, no need to sms anybody anything.. it was like i had more time for myself. but now i've gotten a new sim card [same no.] and all the calling n smsing will have to start pretty soon i guess. am currently using my mom's really old phone, some siemens model that i really hate to use cos it's just so... eeeks. it's difficult to sms, i havent figured out how to store names, and it's terribly ugly. i miss flipping my phone. i miss seeing that pink light flash.... sigh. i miss my phone. but nvm, i'm gonna get a 3G phone soon. ptL! so i'll just live with this terribly ugly phone for a few weeks.. n hopefully my new phone will come asap. X) so yes continuing with my story, we headed down to jess place[where i ate loads of choc to feel happier. i say with full conviction that chocolate does make one feel happier. endorphins are a wonderful thing. altho i dunnoe if u can say that a choc addict will also love sex, cos well they both release the same thing, just in diff quatities. but thats for another time.] n the poor girl kept on having nose bleeds! wah it was so serious.. i've never seen sooo much blood come out of anyone's nose in my life before. every 15 minutes whenever she sneezed, she'd break a vessel or something, n the bleeding would just continue for 5 - 10 minutes. it was so bad that she had to go down to changi AnE. so basically we slept very little that night. but it was amazing just to see her n talk to her. after all the years.. we're still good friends, and thats amazing. =D i mean... it's hard to find friends u can still remain close with after so long. and the bunch of girls i found in SHPS grad batch of 2001 are one of the most fab pple i know. amanda ai ping jess n meli... wow still can't believe that after so long we're still chums. X)

and that was just wednesday's recap. hahaha.

so thursday morning i woke up at abt 10 cos it was really uncomfortable on her bed, and i gave sin ma a call cos i was supposed to meet up with him n we decided to have breakfast together. n he was such a sweetie..! he came over to jess' place to pick me up n we went over to siglap together to find nice breakfast. i was so sleepy n tired n hungry and all i wanted was bacons, eggs and a nice cuppa coffee. n he was such a sweetie to accomodate me n we walked arnd east coast road trying to find nice breakfast but to no avail. =( so we ended up at coffee club where i had a nice cup of coffee that made me feel more human n less zombie. X) n after that he sent me hm n i played ps2 X-Men Legends with my sis [i've finally completed the game, btw. X))] and after that... hmm.. nuthing much lah. went out for dinner with my dad n bought myself a new pair of pants from FOX at half price. yay. X) went back homew to continue my X-Men Legends mania and ended up sleeping at arnd 4.

friday - new year's eve!!! it was such a nua and relaxing day, i woke up to play ps2 with my jie [i think it's our bonding time. haha] and after that.. made a cake for cg and after that headed down to church in a fab mini skirt i borrowed from her. X) had an awesome time in svc [when do i not have an awesome time in church?!] and after that.. went down to esplanade to count down with everyone and it was a MADHOUSE! haha.. we ended up spraying cans n cans of those foam thingies on each other.. n man it was superb fun! after all the madness, we went to eat down at the old market [lao pa sa? i dunnoe how to spell haha] and my daddy was so sweet he came n picked me up. i was so tired i crashed in bed at 3++ in spite of all the noise that my bro's cg mates were making. n today, hmmm.. today we had cg at 10 in the morning, and i.m.o it was a great way to end a yr and start a yr. end it with svc, start it with cg. how awesome is that? =D

ok so that's my recap for the past few days, pretty eventful if u ask me. still can't believe my hp is gone. can't believe that school is strating in 2 days!!!!! ahhhh!!!!! n i hv not even touched my hol hw. am planning to ignore all the teachers when i get back. n oh man i dunnoe whut they will sya abt my hair.... will they think i'm a pai kia? gosh that's the last thing i want - to be associated with them. ugh. ok nvm. only 10 more mnths before i'm free and i can get outta chung cheng. can't wait for the day i can severe all ties with the place. X)

2004 has been an awesome yr. alot's happened for me, daddy's cancer, the guys that have come n gone, the meeting up of old friends, the making of new ones, having an awesome time at emerge with jiejie n kelv, growing up in cg, learning to giving BS, travelling on my own... n enough drama to make a soap opera seem mellow. but thru it all God's been good to me. [good being the understatement of eternity] He's never given me more than i cannot bear, and He's shown me more of whut He is like this year. i cannot imagine a life without God.. how sad it is, to only live for urself n never see the greater picture of life. this year.. wow, hard to sum up 2004 in just 1 paragraph. so many different things have happened that have changed me and made me grow up faster. have many things to be thankful for in 2004. am especially thankful that my daddy's still alive n well n he's fine. july and august was traumatic, but i came out stronger and more able to handle pressure n difficulties. =) the good, the bad, the traumatic, the embarrassing - all the different aspects of 2004, i know i would not wanna change it for the world. i can say with confidence that i have run as far as i can run, and i've not regretted anything in 2004. =D

ok, have written alot, but still not enough reminiscing and looking back, but my fingers are seriously getting tired. i'll continue more tmr. night peeps! X))