f.y.i the new all american rejects album is HOT. if u thot the first one was good, this is wayyy better. superb.

and i'm not talking about the new single 'dirty little secret'. there are tons that sound better. superb stuff.

off to play X Men Legends 2. WHICH IS FINALLY OUT!!


shit i shld be studying.

but a girl needs to relax, doesnt she. =p

au revour!

do u know that feeling u get when u have so much to say, but u don't know how to put it into words?

have u ever stared at the blank empty space in ur blogger 'create post' page wondering what to type even tho u have sooo much u want to say and try to get off ur chest?

that's how i'm feeling right now.

oh well, i should drop all the emo shit and go study. the O LEVELS are coming.

n god that freaks me out so, SO bad.


bleah.

u swept it under the carpet. stop denying it bloody hell. it's so typical of u to give those model answers u gave. u never explained. never did anything. u couldnt be bothered i guess.


u lied when u said u loved me. LIED.

but i'm so over it.

so, i hope u're happy i'm leaving. cos i'm thrilled to leave u, and all the poseurs just like u.

have a nice life, ms ylc.

i know i will.

:)

i am leaving. yes. i am not going to stay. and this time its not just a melodramatic statement i'm saying to gain attention.

i am most definitely going to leave. and nothing u say and nothing u do will be able to stop me. it's too late even if u try.


i can finally say i've gained my closure. i can finally say that u dont affect me anymore. ur opinions no longer matter. i am happy with myself, my current life, and how i'm living. i want to experiment with different things.

we have different opinions on life and everything else in between. so i'm leaving to explore a new phase of my life.

i hope u do well in ur life. i hope u gain ur own closure. but don't expect to find it from me. cos i'm out. i've had enough.



anyway.

i need to meet more people. its weird, but i suddenly feel like an introvert. hahahaha. ok. off to the bookstore now! i'll meet new people another time. lol. =p

my doggie looks so adorable now. his head's on my foot and i can see his eyes start to slowly close... he looks so comfortable and nua-ed. hee.

well, its weird not having to chiong for some exam now.. my prelims are over, and i can finally take a breather b4 i jump into the abyss again.

sounds awful right? just manage to climb out... but in a few days need to jump back in.

reminds me of bungee jumping.

i take the plunge and the drop is a looonnngg one. i'm terrified as i drop.. there never seems to be an end pt. where the rope recoils and pulls me out. when all to suddenly it stops. n i'm pulled back to safety. to relax, enjoy the view, ponder what i just did...

n then jump back down.

but i guess i'll be more prepared and less scared the next time round. i'll make sure i know how to enjoy the view and control my irrational fear. i refuse to let a stupid exam get to me. i know that i'm stronger than this silly examination.



but as for now, it's time to NUA! lol. push the prelims to the back of my head, n spend the day doing absolutely nothing. altho i actually feel like going to sentosa.. but nah. lazy to travel lol. i think i'll just head down to the library, or go to some bookshop to read. X))

ok. i'm off to shower n its time to hit the books!

for the first time in a long while, i cannot wait to get my hands on a book. =D


au revoir darlings!

PRELIMS OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FINALLY FREEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!

i screwed a madz, but who cares? i was bz scribbling nonsense on the spare pieces of foolscap.. ha.


lit was good. lazy dava copied the question out from my textbook, which i happened to read just b4 going to take paper.. so... heh heh heh..

=D

no promises, but i think i can hear my a1 coming. =D


ok. off to partaaaayyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


au revoir!

just f.y.i,

i am not anorexic.

neither am i bulimic.

i don't have a food disorder.

i'm perfectly fine.


seriously.



anyway.

mommy n daddy got back home on sunday!!!!!!! wah was super happy to see them. they bought loads loads loads of chocolate [we can open our on shop liao] and a pretty happening tube from billabong.

i am so grateful for parents who have good fashion sense. X)

speaking of fashion, NY spring RTW fashion week just ended. it was a pretty good show. managed to browse thru all the designers last night. the nautical theme is still on. there's the whole safari thing going on [michael kors] as well. vera wang had beautiful dresses. but too much black for a spring collection, i.m.o.

it was pretty awesome. i'll try to post some pics up when i can =)

oh and speaking of dresses.

the emmys have come and gone! most of the stars were actually looking pretty goood [for once]! but of course there had to be some awful looking stars [to make the others look better]. so as an age old tradition on moi blog, here's the commentary or the emmys red carpet. from the ooohs to the eeeewws, here's my take on what the stars wore.


ooohh -
the cast of DH looked fab. esp. marcia cross in that gorgeous elie saab green dress. she was definitely the best dressed of the group, i.m.o. no fake tan, no awful makeup. she looked wonderful. the earrings complimented her dress so well, n her hair looked amazing.
congrats to felicity huffman who won best actress in a comedy series. she looked pretty good herself. that cranberry Kevan Hall dress looked great. =) teri hatcher, eva longaria, and even nicollette sheridan looked so classy. teri n nicolette in their tubes, so classy! with the pulled back hair and yummy shoes. they are so definitely not desperate. ha

alyson hannigon. she looked amazing! this ex buffy star had such a beautiful gown on. wonderful detail, flowy flowy at the botton. yumyum.

lauren graham. she looked BEAUTIFUL! yes i know i'm biased, but c'mon give this woman an emmy nomination already! she is amazing on gilmore girls.. so give her an nomination at leastttt. ok on to the dress, red chiffon with ruffles at the back. this girl looks beautiful. =)

heidi klum. kudos to this woman for looking so fab just after giving birth. one would expect her to be puffy and fat, but no. she looks amazing in this floral dior dress. hides all the necessary flab [which i dont think exist] and makes her stand out cos of all the design. yummyyy. she radiates.


eeeww-
macy gray. ah. my eyes hurt. whats this mismatch of clothes?! did no one tell her that its wrong to dress up for the emmys with your eyes closed?!?! she should fire her stylist. i like her shoes, but they so dont go with the dress. wrong. wrong. WRONG.

debra messing. usually i love this woman but this time she looks so scary. even tho its debra messing. and eeven tho she's wearing an elie saab dress. still. she looks scary. don't like the hair either. too.. scary la! small kids will look at her and cry.

tess smith. good god this woman takes worst dressed HAND DOWN. she looks like some cheap whore/porno star who rushed off the set of some ancient greek porn flick. -.-" she looks horrendous. people like her make paris hilton and pamela anderson look like grace kelly.

melenia knauss, donald trump's wife. whats up with trying to look like some greek goddess? u are not angelina jolie. u will fail at ur feable attempts to copy the greek goddess look. fire ur stylist. get a new one. maybe even start a new reality tv show. "the stylist"? sounds good. lol

others worth mentioning...

donald trump. cute ensem during the song he sang. lol. never imagined to see him in denim overalls and a star hat sucking some wheat thingy. and singing. lol lol.

jennifer garner. she looks like a whale la?! someone send her to the hospital! quick! call an ambulance! the woman's gonna blow! ha.. she looks so happy n radiant, but her poor baby must be squashed since she had to squeeze into such a tight dress. i wonder how long she took to get in that thing. lol


ok that's it for my commentary. will post pics up sometime, hopefully, if i'm not too lazy. lol. off to study literature. i want my a1, dammit!


au revoir darlings! one more day to go and i'm FRRREEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

X)))

"all you need is love"

"love is a many splendid thing"


i suddenly wanna take out my moulin rouge dvd and watch the bril show.

i wish i could go into a movie. or a tv show.

be a can can girl. or anything i want to be.


i wish.


"i can dream.. can't i?"

prelims. are halfway over.

halfway being the keyword. i dont have a paper today [later in the morning] unlike those poor bio students and pure geography students. heh heh. my exam schedule is the BEST la! get two days off, and we finish the earliest. hehhehehehehehe. so i spent today just converting oxygen into carbon dioxide.. wasting my brain cells away... telling myself that prelims over. yes i know i'm deluding myself. [i automatically think of 12th night. appearance vs. reality. self knowledge, and lack of it.. viola, olivia, orsino, feste, malvolio, sir andrew AHHHHH] i have 4 more papers next week.

but so wad?

i am going to ITE la. i think the simei one is very nice. there's even a swimming pool and tennis court. n and a track. i bet they have a superb gym.

i can go suntanning everyday.

not bad right.

dont go VJ, go simei ITE.




sigh.



three words to describe this week: AWFUL BEYOND COMPREHENSION.

its like every single thing i've studied the past few weeks are just leaking out of my brain and i am becoming more n more stupid by the day. and i go into the stupid exam hall to freak out like a nut.

and then forget everything single thing.


SIGH.


i accept my fate. i'm definitely going to ITE liao.


i need a form of escape. something to distract me from reality. something. anything.


help..?


help. i need to turn my brain into a SPONGE. bleah

its strange. i'm suddenly crazy over takuya kimura again. must be thanks to the new show on channel u. bleah!


he is so sutsut la!! n he's just so.. suave? ya. lol. i even dug out my sis 2046 divx just to watch him. n the show was so sci-fi.. totally not my cuppa tea. i can never really understand shows that have to do with time travel and androids. -.-" the only thing i did enjoy from the show was.. takuya kimura. lol. he is really very sut...


but sumhow no one seems to agree with me!! xian called him zhuai. bleah!!!


i think the studying has really made me lose it. -.-"

in the meantime, if any of u kind souls have any takuya kimura jap drama serials dvds/vcds, LEND ME!!!!!!!!!! i will be forever grateful. =D


ok off to sleep. i think i shld start sleeping early. lol.


au revoir darlings!

"Heaven has no rage like love to hatred turned/Nor hell a fury like a woman scorned."

--William Congreve in The Mourning Bride of 1697.


unlike what some geniuses *ahem* say, the phrase is not 'hell hath no fury like a woman scorned'. interesting right? lol. its interesting to see how women are more vindictive.. calculating... and how they turn into evil monsters when they angry. more than men do. upset them and release the horrors within them... ok it starting to sound like some lame ps2 game. get the girl angry, run away screaming. oooo reminds me of how aaron told me of the 'poke the angry ogre' game. lol. watch the woman turn ogre-ish.

lol

but anyways.

i am still awake. doing literature. listening to Jamie Cullum's "I Want To Be A Popstar"

its total genius. he is brilliant =)


ok. back to the books. i'm still high. and craving my vodka raspberry. X))

au revoir!

ola ola!


contrary to popular belief, i'm not depressed.

like hullo dahlings. *rolls eyes* why would i be depressed? XD

stressed, yes. depressed, no.

i know i've been sounding angsty wangsty.. totally emo like siao.

but the last coupla posts were all by clara, that evil crazy twin of mine. u guys rmb her, dont u? she looks just like me.. just wonky, bonky, evil, pmsing 24/7... but don't worry she's safely in her closet all locked up now. =D


sarah, is currently feeling very high. not becos of any codka she might be consuming [altho she is dreaming of some nice absolut vodka rasberry] but cos she's a happy girl.

"WHY?" u ask.

well, since u asked... =D


i finally understand RELTAIVE VELOCITY! which is super hard i.m.o. so yay congrats to me. X)) dont think i'll have to burn my a madz book n swallow the ashes liao. just need to do all the silly questions.

which i've learnt wont kill me. =D all thanks to my wonderful a madz tuition teacher.


X))


ok. off to hit the books! i'm in such a good mood u wont believe. lol.


but my mood can always be better if someone would kindly sponsor my vodka for me. in raspberry flavour please. XD

au revoir!

i cant do amadz.

i just can't.

i might as well burn my stupid textbook and tys and drink the ashes.

hopefully i'll die in the process.

so i won't have to take the stupid prelim paper or the o levels.

GAHHH.

i hate feeling stupid.

sarah feels...


lost. cos she doesnt know what to do.

frustrated. cos she cant seem to put any info into her brain when her prelims are NEXT week

confused.

tired. of studying. of trying to mug.

sad. she wants to sit alone and cry.

weary. worn out. overstretched.


but sarah isnt your typical angst filled teenager who has nothing to live for and no purpose in life.

sarah has purpose and destiny in her life.

sarah has Jesus. and that makes up for everything in the world.

she might not be ok now, but she knows she will be.

she knows she is not alone.

thanks dears.

i really needed to see u two today.

thanks for meeting me at bugis today. just one sms from me n ur were willing to come down.


u have no idea how much it meant. seriously. =)


ms lim n ms leng, ur are the bestest buddies, chummiest chums, n awesomest girlfrens i could ever ask for. thanks for sticking with me when i feel like shit. for cheering me up and doing silly things with me [like making me look like a shu nu?! lol] just to make me laugh.

best friends dont have to talk about deep, philosophical issues all the time; or always have something exciting to do or even just something to say.

they just have to be there for each other. thanks for being there for me.



hoes over bros - always. ok? i know always sounds like such a long time, and its never really possible. but i promise to let this relationship drift.

love you two darlings like crazy.


thank you. really.

secrets. we all got our own dirty little secret. hiding in the skeleton closet of our lives. we try to push them into the back of our minds, try to forget that they even exist. and sometimes we're so successful that we actually do forget.

but they always come back.

the always catch up with you.