Argh I have to type really fast cos' I have to leave for the greyhound station in like 10 minutes and I haven't even finished checking my stuff in my luggage. AAAHHHH!!

Super quick updates - have bought many many things, am a very happy happy girl. =D Have seen many many cool things, the sights and sounds are all pretty awesome. Even in columbus. Have to admit, I was pleasantly surprised to see that they had cool stuff here. PLUS. omgwtpbbq I FINALLY went into a VS Store + an Abercrombie store. SO FRIGGIN COOL CAN! (ya i know I sound like a tourist hahaha) Something weird I noted, all the staff at Abercrombie are really REALLY hot la. Must be a prerequisite for working there : hotness. Lol.

Anyway, I'm off to NYC and I'm really excited. Will try to update when I get there. And OH! I'll be flying back on MH601. Derek REPLY ME HOR.

Ok my mom's screaming i gtg.

Tata dearies!!!

Updates!

I'm currently in Ontario, Canada at sa family friend's place. Their house is situated just beside Ontario Lake (one of the biggest in the world) and it's BEAUTIFUL. Cold like shit, but beautiful. I am slowly morphing into a reptile - I have scales not skin. Don't know how these people do it - the air is so dry it pactically sucks moisture out of you.

But it is a beautiful place though. Went to Niagara falls on Tuesday and OMG IT'S SO FRIGGING GORGEOUS. Words don't do it justice so I shan't even try. I'll just post pics when I'm back home. X)

Canada has alot of Chinese, and the Chinese food is actually pretty good. Got shui zhun. I think ultimately Chinese food is the BEST food, period. So much variety and so many different dishes. Yummy yummy. Nigel says I'm wonks 'come all the way to canada just to watch hongkong serial and eat chinese food' hahaha. What can I say? I'm true blue Chinese.

The shopping escapades have been... fruitful to say the least. oday's gonna be another great day - heading back to Niagara Falls to take Maid of The Mist. SO EXCITING! Then off to some outlets to do shopping again. Happy happy. X)

Hello sweeties...! It's been a long 3 days and I'm still feeling the after effects of sitting on an airplane for 22 hours. It was a pretty dreadful flight - by the time we reached Newark Intl. Airport I was completely airsick.

But it was well worth it. Spent the first day doing some MAJOR shopping and I have many many nice new things. Like my new KENNETH COLE boots and ballet flats (start drooling girls). Hehehehe. Well the shoppping's just begun, I have many many many more things I want to buy but all in all it's been a successful first few days.

Haven't taken much photos - guess that happens when you are too busy enjoying yourself (read: shopping). X) And OH I went to NYC today - DAMN I'M IN LOVE!!! The lights, the buildings.. It's definitely a place I'd want to be. So what if the prices of apartments and cars cost a bomb? It's such an amazing city. The different languages you hear all around you even as you walk the streets, the different accents you have to try to decipher when you ask for directions - it's just so thrilling. The sights and sounds excite me.

Anyway, I'm off to eat dinner - thats the other thing - not only does my sleeping time get screwed up, my eating also gets screwed up and I don't feel hungry for the whole day. But in the middle of the night I wake up starving.

More when more stuff happens. =p AND WHERE ARE MY EMAILS LI XIAN N DEREK??

Btw, my posting time is Singapore time. So minus 12 hours and you get my time. Au revoir!

Hello sweeties, I'm currently in the airport about to embark on my 22 hour flight. Just found out I'm stopping over at Stockholm (yippee!) and landing in Newark, not JFK. Excited and sleepy (I slept about 90 minutes?), I'll try to update as soon as I can when I'm there. Don't miss me when I'm gone, but be in for a big photo whoring post when I get back.

Oh yes. Before I forget. Don't call or sms me. I'm not bringing my phone. Drop me an email if you have any sudden shopping request, I'll try to get whatever you want.

Toodles darlings. X)

"Everyone thinks I'm so strong but I'm not actually. Everybody thinks it's time to move on but the thing is I don't even know where I should move to... I'm not a good communicator, I don't know how to tell you all these things."

In many ways I'm like her. Hearing from her all the things I've been fearing and thinking and feeling was in a way oddly comforting but at the same time scary. I see that I have inherited many of her attributes. I can talk alot - but when it comes to really opening up and baring my soul, I get word constipation. The words come out funny, the phrases are awkward and nothing comes out the way I want it to. In the end I usually keep it to myself to spare me (and the listener) all the hassle of explaining.

What can I possibly do to help her? My being there seems to be inconsequential - I'm not the one she needs. My love seems insufficient because I'm not the one she wants it from. I do try to make time for her and make room for her but sometimes I need to have my own life. I don't show her my pain because I feel my pain is nothing compared to what she's feeling. I'm afraid of reminding her of the loss - I can't handle the after effects of talking about him yet. She is very strong - I wish she'd see what I see in her. Despite the fears and anxieties and worries and pain she is stronger than most. Despite the fact that she feels like she's going no where, I see someone who is capable, independant and so loved. The problem is, how do I make her see what I see?


I don't know how long this will go on for, don't know how long it will take, but Jesus I pray you do what I cannot do and please do it quick. Mend wounds I cannot dress, give love I'm incapable of giving.

I wonder if I'll ever get married. Let's not even talk about finding the right guy (if he even exists) but sometimes I fear losing the person I love to sickness. Seeing her pain is enough to make me scared of daring to take that step out. At this stage you could call me a coward but the idea of having to go through what my mom went through terrifies me.

Off to bed now. Am extremely sleepy and we're going to the cemetery tomorrow. Can't believe I'm flying in 4 days and I've not even packed. More soon - laters alligators.

Totally random ramblings...

RECCE?

I never knew its spelled this way. It's the weirdest word I've seen. I always thought its rackey. Lol. Thank you Derek for the info. X)

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TWO MORE DAYS OF WORK AND I ACTUALLY GET PAID ON FRIDAY ITSELF. Happy happy joy joy. New York shopping money will finally be here! Cha-ching

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Did you know that Egyptians break the nose bone to get a 'hook' into the brain that will smash the brain so that it'll be able to come out through the nose - jello and mucus and all - before they mummify a dead person? Well now you do. X) The person becomes a human dumpling of some sort when they mummify him/her. Nice and tight lol. All this weird info courtesy of MWM (MiniWikiMan), more popularly known as Nigel Hee Dewen. (NIGEL I WILL NEVER FORGET YOUR CHINESE NAME.)

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Speaking of dumplings, my brother went to the hospital to remove his toenail from his very infected large right toe and OMG it's wrapped to the size of my fist. The lucky (or maybe not so) fellow gets ONE WEEK MC. Blah. He's so happy to be able to catch up on his WOW and all the new games on his Xbox 360. I should try to sneak a picture of his toe so you'll know I'm not exxagerating. And OH, the best part is he's going to get his left toe done next week. Two big fists on his feet will surely be funny hahahha.

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I AM GOING TO NEW YORK!!! THE BIG APPLE BABY. Woohooooo! Steve Madden. Marc Jacobs. And my secret love - F.A.O SHWARTZ!! Eh, it's the coolest toy store in the world. PWNS Toys-R-Us a million times over. Oh and of course all the pretty shops I'm too lazy to type out - oh wait there's one more. MANOLO BLAHNIK!!!! Can I just go in to try shoes? I hope the sales person is nice.

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Can't join Spelling Bee cos the quarterfinals will be on the 14th. BASKET*&%(*#**&.

Nairmind. Give this years contestants a chance. Next year I shall win for the whole world to see heh heh heh.

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Found this fabulous website with complete Jason Mraz gigs. Ask me for it if you want - its so frigging amazing la.

Ok off to drown in Mr.AZ melodies. See you later 'gators.

Greetings from the planet Work-All-Day. Have been swamped at work so I don't even have time to TOU LAN (Dilbert must be so disappointed) and when I get home I'm trying to figure out the rather complicating map of Manhattan. So what am I doing here? It's lunch time and the office is deserted, except for a few workaholics still staring at their comp screens, and the weird boss who's been sneezing alot. I should pass him a tissue - then again maybe not. Have been eating packed lunches at work (courtest of Momma Ling) and no I'm not insane. I'm just saving $$ to spend in NYC.

Good god I'm leaving NEXT THURSDAY. *cue Leaving on a Jet Plane* I haven't even packed my luggage (although I know what shoes I'm bringing heh heh heh) and finished planning the itinerary. Am terribly excited. Still can't believe I'M REALLY GOING TO NEW YORK. 22 hours with my ass glued to a chair and immense jet lag afterward is not deterring me from hopping on that plane one bit. IT'S NEW YORK.

The days have been flying by (work has a funny way of making your life pass faster) and I can't believe that after 3 more days I'm resuming my job as a FULL TIME BUMMER. Oh happy happy joy joy I cannot wait. X)) Life has been rather mundane, except for the perks of DJing lessons (thank you once again Bern) and the occasional shopping spree (I bought a new pair of heels. 'walking shoes' for NY is what I prefer to call them). Oh yes, WE GOT OUR CAR! It's beautiful baby, beautiful. Plus, we got a 3 DIGIT LICENSE PLATE NUMBER! The number is very sui. Looks like a number we bought heh heh. The thrill of sitting in a brand new car was pretty cool. Am definitely motivated to learn how to drive.

Ok, more when I have the time. I'm neglecting my lunch and I wanna nap before everyone gets back. Au Revoir darlings!